Love sick kurooxkenma

🖤Doesnt need me🖤

Sitting on the cold floor of my one room apartment bathroom. Blood dripping off my arm as if it's the only thing that it knows how to do, the feeling of regret and sorrow of losing the one I love most lingering through out my whole body and mind. I'm so stupid, why couldn't I tell him how I felt before it was too late? I hate myself , He's gone now,now I have no reason to live . It's been a year since kuroo and bakuto have gotten together. Why does he have to look so happy with him? I just want him to love me, I just want to love him, I just want to share my love in varieties of ways that I know  he will only feel wanted and safe around me. I'm crying till my lungs give out every night, cutting until my arms are no longer a nice shade of white but a Crimson dark shade of red. My house lingers with silence now, I mean ever since my mom and my abusive dad died, they killed each other actually isn't that weird Huh. She died protecting me from him, and he died from keeping her away from me, he actually wanted to kill me can you believe that,well I can. Mean I shouldn't even be alive I'm just nothing,I'm  just A worthless piece of trash. I mean that's what my dad said after all. Before I have an anxiety attack I grab my hoodie,my phone and headphones And head out the door. I put my headphones in my phone and listen to the nice song that plays through my ears.
💜I'm going to put the lyrics so here,and the son at the top💜

Walking down 29th and Park
I saw you in another's arms
Only a month we've been apart
You look happier
Saw you walk inside a bar
He said something to make you laugh
I saw that both your smiles were twice as wide as ours
Yeah, you look happier, you do
Ain't nobody hurt you like I hurt you
But ain't nobody love you like I do
Promise that I will not take it personal, baby
If you're moving on with someone new
'Cause baby you look happier, you do
My friends told me one day I'll feel it too
And until then I'll smile to hide the truth
But I know I was happier with you
Sat on the corner of the room
Everything's reminding me of you
Nursing an empty bottle and telling myself you're happier
Aren't you?
Ain't nobody hurt you like I hurt you
But ain't nobody need you like I do
I know that there's others that deserve you
But my darling, I am still in love with you
But I guess you look happier, you do
My friends told me one day I'd feel it too
I could try to smile to hide the truth
I know I was happier with you
Baby, you look happier, you do
I knew one day you'd fall for someone new
But if breaks your heart like lovers do
Just know that I'll be waiting here for you
Source: LyricFind
Songwriters: Edward Christopher Sheeran / Benjamin Joseph Levin / Ryan Benjamin Tedder
Happier lyrics © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC, Universal Music Publishing
Group, Downtown Music Publishing

I start to break down in the middle of the street,I begin to run at full speed to get back home before anybody sees me,until at the corner of my eyes I see kuroo and bokuto having a argument I decided it has nothing to do with me so I walked back home close my door and grab my blade ready for another cut.