Forbidden Love

All Star Breakfast

Lindsey's POV

Em fell asleep on the couch with me after our long day. Even though after the first twenty minutes of her with her head on my shoulder I couldn't feel my arm, I didn't care. 

Kelley came in a little while after she fell asleep. 

I know that she's mad at me for asking about her scar but in all honesty, I don't know if she would ever have told me if I didn't bring it up.

I'm not sure what time it because my phone got lodged in between the couch cushions we're laying on and I don't want to grab it and accidentally wake Em up, but my mind has been reeling ever since Kelley went back into her room.

 I didn't have much time to process the information Kelley told me the other day and now hearing Emily tell the story, it's sitting heavy in my heart.

I had no idea...

I can't believe I didn't see it. 

That I was too wrapped up in everything else that was going on to not see my best friend and the girl I had feelings for, so clearly hurting. 

Because of me. 

I still have so many questions, but I don't want to ask them in fear that it upsets her again, which I know it would. I might ask Kelley but I doubt she would actually want to talk to me about it...

I feel an arm tighten around my torso and look down to see Emily stirring. I freeze, not wanting to wake up her. She thankfully stills quickly after, nuzzling further into my side.

I try to think back to January and what I was doing then.

I think I was in Denver with Mallory. We were training for the world cup almost every day so I didn't have a lot of time to talk to my friends, including Emily.

Mal left to visit Dansby in Georgia after two weeks and I thought about going back to Portland for a little while but the Aussie's were all back in Australia for the W League and Tobin and Chris were doing something, I can't remember what. 

I thought about hanging out with Sonny but Kelley was there and I didn't really want to be around her...Now that I know why she was there...

Without realizing it, my hand started running up and down Em's back, and then over her hair. As much as it probably soothes her, it also soothes me. 

This girl, as much as she is silly and goofy, she's compassionate and gives everything her all, 110% of the time, always going the extra mile whether it be for her friends or for fans. She deserves so much, and I want to give it to her.

I don't know exactly how I got this deep with this blonde girl stretched out next to me, mouth hanging out as she snores softly, but I'm not complaining.

I let the tiredness of the day take me but not before reaching for the Stanford blanket thrown over the back of the couch and pulling it over us. 

The sun shining through Kelley's apartment wakes me up. 

I groan, not wanting to be awake but when I look down and see a peacefully sleeping Em, I smile. 

I don't normally get to look at her this close up with her being this still. I can see all of her freckles like a roadmap and I have to stop myself from running my finger of each one of them. 

She hasn't moved much in her sleep, still pushed up between the back of the couch and my body, one arm wrapped around me and the other resting under her head that's leaning against my shoulder shoulder.