A week before my trip here, I have been receiving romantic gifts a girl could receive, well, for me. Typical notes with tulips on my doorstep, a sunflower, well, sometimes, it's what I get. But ever since nobody's been leaving off marks until one Saturday.
I stepped outside to buy some food at McDonalds for I was hungry, I was waiting for the elevator to come, so I stood and wait and listened to good music.
And beeped, the elevator door opened and I stepped in, since I was on the 32ndt floor, it was still a long way down the condominium, 32, 31, 30, oops it opened, well, I know even if my eyes were closed, it stopped for a moment and started going down again.
I feel strange. I feel like someone is in the room with me, I opened my eye to check, Harry was standing beside me. I widen my eyes and said, "Hey Haz, where are you up to?" He seemed to ignore my remark and looked at the tulip that I was holding. "Who gave that to you?" he suddenly spoke. "I don't know, he's anonymous." I replied. "If it's anonymous, how did you know that it was a boy that was sending you that?" he seemed pissed, well he had no right, actually he has, because I like him. "I just feel it Harry, sometimes, you just feel it. Bye." As I said my goodbye, I walked fast across the mall and made my way to McDonalds. Whew, I got over that. My phone rang.
*beep**beep*
From: unknown
What am I to you?
What? I have the feeling that it's Harry doing this? But why on earth would he do that? Naah, I'll let it go. Doesn't matter anyway. I made my order and as I made my way to an empty table, I started fantasizing about my upcoming trip, a trip with nature and wild animals would be the best time of my life. How wonderful.
I am currently out of my mind, I should set an ultimatum for myself and stop all of these delusions coming out from my mind. Yes, it may have been tough, feeling this, feeling that, but what if we gave this another shot?
So here I am now, in Africa. Feeling the safari life like it's the best thing that the world could ever offer. I wake up with Lions roaming around, Giraffes visible from my terrace. This is what I absolutely need. I am in luck, I know no one here in this place, I could act all crazy and they wouldn't even care. I'm starving, maybe I should go and head to the buffet and find myself good to eat. Stepping out from the terrace, I grabbed my phone and headed to the restaurant. Don't mind me though, I eat a lot, but hey, no judgements please, it's my vacation.
Eating alone, feeling alone. Is this how you really feel when you're on a vacation alone?
I didn't plan this to be so so so sad. Oh I miss McDonalds. Food here is great but you always miss the ones you've gotten used to.
Over lunch I thought about giving both this secret admirer and Harry the chance to try but that doesn't mean that he'd get back to where he was just because I still like him. Chewing my fresh fruits, I wondered, what's he doing right now? I better go check, I thought to myself, I sound like a nosy girlfriend or a stalker is much more suitable.
Checking my phone, looking at the messages since it's no use, I'll just use the other social media platforms that I have here in my phone. Let's try twitter. I can see him so active at twitter. Over the times that he shut me out, I never really stalked his Twitter account. Looking through his profile I saw another twitter link. And the bio stated, for my eyes only. Interesting. What could this account be? I just gave it out a shot and followed it although it was private, but who cares, im curious myself.
So engaging with nature I had my safari walk, posting photos on my Instagram every once in a while. Tried out the different adrenaline disturbing activities that they have here in the hotel. Eating a lot of food for like 5 to 6 times a day, yes I'm slim but I have a big appetite. I have like a week here so why not take a rest for the first day, anyway, I have already accomplished a lot for today, doing one-fourth of the activities that the hotel has to offer. Im pretty worn out myself, try to explore the city of South Africa, that is for tomorrow. But before jumping fully to the bed, why don't I take a swim on the pool.
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Feeling the night breeze, the peacefulness, I mean it's only 7pm why is the pool so peaceful, I guess tourists don't really like to take a dip not unless there's a cocktail all night jam party here. Its scheduled at 9pm here so maybe every teenager here is getting ready for that and as for the kiddos, they're maybe on the safari jungle gym to play all night since the parents are scheduled to have alone time this season. I have never felt this comfortable for a long time.
I was just chilling with my phone beside me on the cement and just laying there watching over the stars. This feels so surreal, next up, reality. College life. What is in store for me? These questions running inside my mind is just, way too much. I feel so anxious about what life would bring to me. Nah, I'll just let it go for a moment. I need stargazing therapy, which is as of this moment, I have the best experience. Thank you South Africa. Thank you Sun City International.
After an hour, I decided to head back to my hotel room, a quick shower and change before I just dive into my huge king sized bed.
After my shower, wore the bathrobe and took a few mirror selfies.
Went to the terrace and have good night view while drinking my tea.
Looking out the window. I was happy with my life. We weren't that well off but we lived in harmony on the rural area, and life was good. Now that I'm pretty exposed to the city, might as well try to be myself, a half city girl. I love how this peace feels like. But this trip would be nice if my family were here. Soon maybe, soon.
Goodness, It's 10pm, and from what I can see, looking at my view, the crowd is exceptionally noisy and fun. I'm no party girl so I'll just look at them a little more and sleep afterwards.
After I did that, I made myself to the bed and seek the comfort of this large bed. Closing my eyes and I drifted into deep slumber.
Minutes after while Taylor was soundly asleep, her phone rang.
