Keep On Loving You Lulu( Code Geass Lelouch x Shirley fanfic)

2: A Memory Of The Past

And that very night, I had the strangest dream...
SHIRLEY'S DREAM(LELOUCH'S MEMORY)_________
   Where am I? I feel someone hugging me as I seen to be trembling. The person lets go of me and looks me in the eye. It's the man from earlier, except there is blood on his shoulder and a gun in my hand. Did I do this to him? I want to ask him but it send I can't control myself, I guess I have to watch.

    "It's okay. It's over." His voice was calm yet concerning, unlike when I met him.

    "Lulu, I-I really did kill someone." My voice was shaky, or so I heard.

    I'm about to speak again.

    "That's why I-"

    "It's because of me.It's not your fault." He pulls me into a hug again, I'm looking on the ground which seems to have pictures of him and I.

    "And I shot you with your gun." I'm about to cry.

    "I'm still alive."

    I can't stop crying now, my hands are gripping onto him.

    "But, I didn't!"

    "Shirley, any sin you commited is mine to bear."

    "I-I wanted you to be kind to me."

    "What's wrong with that?"

    "E-even though my father died."

    He pulls away from me and tries to see into my eyes once more.

    "Don't worry, it's time to forget all the bad things that has happened to you."

    "Ahh no I can't!"

    "Yes you can!" I am surprised and I finally open my eyes fully.

    His voice is now full of regret and sadness.

    "I'll help you forget all about this."

    "T-that's impossible." I'm looking him in his violet eyes, I can't turn away from them.His eyes staring deep into mine.

    "Shirley, I'm sorry about your father.If I could be reborn into a new life," a red bird-like symbol appears on his left eye," I would."

    "Lulu." His left eye had now gone violet red and the symbol on his eye grew stronger, I can't even look away.

    "NO DON'T!" I stopped as memories of him and I together were being stolen. Now I'm at a large statue of some sort. I turn around and see that the man, or Lulu, and been looking at me, his eyes full of loss now.

    "Oh hello, um, did you loose someone in your family too?"

    "Ah no, not someone from my family. It was a friend, someone, well very, important."

    "I understand."

    "But I didn't know, I didn't know until after I lost her." He looked up at the stars. "Then I realized how much she meant to me, that her smile saved me. And how I'd never be able to argue and laugh with her again."

    "I see, you loved her didn't you? You must feel terrible"

    "Right now, I don't know anymore."

    "Well the morning always comes again."

    "What?" He looked back at me.

    "I'd have to say it's funny, I know I came here for some reason, but I can't really remember what it was now. Maybe it's be cause I already put the whole thing behind me, something I wanted to let go of. Maybe it was something I thought I couldn't forget. Maybe I was full of sadness. But, morning still comes right? That's why you shouldn't try to hold back your thoughts like that." His expression was sad yet relieved at the same time.

    "Yes, your right. I feel the same way now. Thanks a lot, for everything." He turned around and walked away. But if he felt the same way, why was he shocked when I met him at the valley?

    "Huh?" Then I watched as he walked into the darkness.

SHIRLEY'S POV_____________________________

    I woke up in the morning crying. Milly told me I looked afraid and was crying the whole night.