all over II Ruel Van Dijk

my heart

we have been waiting for a few minutes now and the underground train is about to arrive. It was crowded, smelly and dark down here, its really giving me new york vibed. I keep getting more uncomfortable with so many people and I keep looking around. 
I felt a hand on my back, softly rubbing over my spine and as I looked up Ruel smiled at me and pulled me a little closer to him so I stood lightly in front of him. No matter what he does, he always makes me feel so calm and comfortable around him, and he really is the most amazing person alive. 
The train arrived and all the people puhed themelves into it, including us. The moent I felt uncomfortbale I looked back up to Ruel and my sorrows were gone. 

"Claudi", he said while we digged into his fanny back. With a small 'Hm?' I turned to him and he handed me my vibrating phone. 
My heart skipped a beat as he showed me the screen.

INCOMING CALL FROM Jacob

The blood in my veins freezed and I stopped breathing for a moment. Anger pushed my hormones and I ripped my phone out of Ruels hand leaving him speechless.

Phone call between Jacob and Claudette

C: I told you not to fucking call
J: I miss you, Claud
C: I dont, so fuck off Jacob
J: Remember when I told you Ill come to the states in June? Are you still off for a meeting then?
C: No Jacob!
J: Why so mean Claud? Already got a new guy or what?
C: Why would you care you fucking cunt, its not like you fucked Emily the other night you bastard.

Without letting him even a second I hung up and agressively stuffed my phone back into Ruels fanny pack and turned my back on him. "You can talk with me about it, you know that Claudi", he calmly said and put his hand back onto my back. I took a deep breath and saw that a few people were staring at us, probably because of my rude verbals mut I really didnt care. 
Not sure if I wanted to talk about it I raised my voice: "Jacob fucked around behind my back for a few weeks back in April and his excuse was that he is 'mentally unstable'"
I took a deep breath again and digged my nails into my soft skin. Pain. Pain...
"So am I, and I dont fucking have sex  with other girls behind his back"
I was so angry, so so angry. Ruel started to softly rub my back again and it seemed like his eyes were tearing up just like mine. Before I knew it, a tear escaped my eye and rolled down my cheek. "Clau, I didnt know", he whispered and came to closer to my face to rub the tear off of my face with his sweater. His touch made me feel weak, so weak that I would just fall for him. 
I loved how he didnt put any pressure on me, how he doesnt force me to tell him things Im not comfortable to talk about. 
"You deserve so much better", he comforted me and pulled me into a light hug. 
"Im so glad that I have you. You are the best Ruel", I mumbled into his puffed chest. He rubbed my head, softly stroke through my hair and tightly held my waist with his large hand. 
"You dont deserve to be treated like this. Its rediciously fucked up", he said and raised his voice, it sounded a little angry. 

"But I know what could make you feel better", he smiled as we exited the train and jumped up the stairs to the bright sun. We ended up on a busy street, but it reminded me off Paris. 
Ruel raised his hand to point at a small store. It didnt catch my eyes first, but as I read the vintage headline my eyes winded and I jumped onto Ruel.