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jisung; sensitive

as i walked into the bedroom, the scent of apples reached me, he must have turned the candle on. sigh. if he did, he would not feel good.
concerned, i took more steps into the room i shared with jisung, my partner. the one i never had pressure with. we could spend time with non-verbal communication and it wouldn't be awkward. we could do work separately and that not because we fought. there's a real comfortable bond between us.
something i'm sincerely proud of and something many, many couples need in this exact moment.

the lights were turned off, the only way to see was thanks to the little scented candle, the flames caused the flickering light; a warm atmosphere in the room, yet, i knew something wasn't right.

"babe?", i asked into the room.
a quiet answer came from our king-sized bed.
my beloved jisung was cuddled into the giant blanket, staring at his phone.
usually, he would sit on the couch and experiment with some new beats and flows but now, he was feeling down and i knew it from the start.

i sat down on the bed, calmly because i knew he wasn't.
"jisungie?"
my hands stroked his back, comforting him even though i didn't exactly know what bothered him.
him, han jisung. the guy who brought more happiness into my life when i never searched for it. someone i could never imagine back then.

someone that simple yet complicated.
someone that childish yet mature.
someone that scared yet confident.
yes, someone like han jisung.

he turned around and sat up. his eyes were full, full of concern and the lack of light made them look even darker.
"hey...i arrived just now.", i greet him with a peck on his soft lips as an additional.
and yes, his lips are addictive.

his face cupped into my right hand, he smiles sadly and looks into my eyes.
"hey babe y/n...
i'm happy you're here..."
"baby, today didn't seem to be the best day?"
"definitely not-
you know...it got worse."
my eyes slightly open but only slightly as i don't want to show him my surprised expression and with that, disappointment.
disappointment in the way i thought it won't be worse. in that way i thought he was mentally strong enough.

"it did?"
"yes...", his voice started to shake while he thought about these certain moments.
"y/n...i- i- never thought my body could feel that tense.
i've been always nervous in front of other people...but this- this- this is..."
he broke eye contact with me and talked in embarrassment.
"-jisung.
before you continue...please look at me."
his eyes widened and he hesitated for a moment.

"i'm sorry, y/n-"
my eyebrows slightly furrowed in confusion.
"why are you sorry, babe?"
"because i'm so sensitive...i'm too damn sensitive...and it's bringing me down."
his voice, filled with pure sadness and disappointment echoed through the room and reached me.
my hands grabbing his, i looked into his eyes.
"yes, babe, you are sensitive.
but what's wrong with that? everyone's different and special and so are you."
"i know but i just wish i would not be like i am."

"but i do."
"why would you? y/n, why would you love and adore someone who just can't handle himself in front of a bigger crowd?
why would you love this person who chose to be a public figure but can't stand properly in public?
...wouldn't you be just simply dumb?"

his voice gained a broken feature, his pain also became a component in his tune.
"i'm not sure about a lot of things but i'm more than sure about the following one.

the person in front of me, the stunningly handsome, breathtaking attractive, unbelievably caring and incredibly talented guy is someone i'm more than proud of and i'm honored to have the chance to give all
of my love to him.
and that's definitely not dumb.

babe, you've been having symptoms for anxiety, we both know that.
and it got worse, you said-"
his whiny voice answered me-
"yes, y/n.
i can't handle standing there anymore.
back then, it was only when i talked and everyone looked at me.
but now- i- i feel like my body is just frozen, the thought of not wanting to be there fills my head but at the exact time, i wanna be there. i wanna be there for stays.
...it's tearing me apart. and it hurts."

i listened to him and nodded, fully accepting and tolerating his experiences.
my lips laid on his in the following moment, bringing my bae into a more calm position.
the tension in his body slowly disappeared.
his lips formed his lips into a smile and i looked at him in awe after the kiss. holding his hands tight.

"thank you for telling me, babe.
i love you with all of my heart and will not leave you.
and because it got worse- shall we see the doctor again tomorrow?", i requested with a calm voice.
"i already made an appointment for tomorrow..."
"perfect, jisungie."

he finally looked at me without worries and stared at my lips before trapping me inside of a perfect world with his passionate kisses.