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6.

Soobin was sitting in the middle of the cafeteria with Sanha and Hyunjin beside him along with a few seniors from soccer club. They were all busy chattering with each other excluding Soobin who just sat there, staring into spaces.

Regret.

It was something that had been in Soobin's mind lately. Soobin regretted everything he said to Yeonjun the other day. He really did. Things had not been the same since the day they fought. It was mostly Soobin's fault to be honest. Soobin was a coward and he blamed all that to Yeonjun.

It had been days Soobin didn't heard anything about the older. He did saw him actually but only when Yeonjun walked pass his house to go to school. He didn't get to meet him in school too. It seemed like the older avoided him at all cost. Or maybe he was busy just  with his boyfriend or whatever their statuses were.

Also, Yeonjun didn't send him messages anymore. Not even a good morning or goodnight liked he usually did. He knew he fucked up everything. Yeonjun must be so mad at him or maybe hated him too.

Soobin missed the older so much. His laughter. His smile. His voice. Soobin missed everything about the older. He missed the other's presence near him.

I miss you.

A single tear suddenly rolled down his cheek without him realizing it. Namjoon who sat in front of him looked at him in worried. "Soobin-ah, are you okay?" -He said, holding the younger's hand to get his attention. Soobin looked at him and smiled. "I'm fine, hyung. Why are you asking?"

"You're crying just now. And you look sad. Is something wrong?" -Namjoon said again, pointing to the younger's eyes to prove his point. "You have been acting weird too." Hyunjin and Sanha both stopped talking and inspected Soobin's face and there was indeed a trace of tears. Soobin quickly wiped away the tears from his face.

"I-I just did something terrible to someone and now I kind of regret it." -He explained, looking down on the table. "To be honest, serve me right." He chuckled bitterly and smiled sadly afterwards before standing up from his seat, saying something about having somewhere to go and walked away, leaving the cafeteria.

Namjoon was about to call for Soobin but Hyunjin stopped him, shaking his head. "Just let him be. It's better that way." Hyunjin stared at Soobin, his shoulder dropped, looking so sad than ever. Soobin had never been like this. This Soobin was not the same Soobin he known. "Good luck, Soobin-ah." -He whispered softly when he could no longer saw him.

Soobin walked soullessly along the corridor, having nowhere to go. His mind repeated the same scenario happened the other day, the words came out from Yeonjun.

"For once, can you be real with me?"

Because the real me is so much of a coward. The real me loves you so much that it is hurt. But I can't possibly say that. I am sorry.

When the last class ended, Soobin waited for the others to leave first before packing his bag and walking outside. From a far, he saw the older, talking while smiling to the senior next to him. However, the smile he wore right now was not the same bright smile he used to have.

Are you okay or is it because you're just very good at pretending?

Soobin wanted to talk to the older but stopped abruptly, thinking whether it was a good decision. He pondered on what to do and decided to just wait there for a few minutes. Only after the two left, Soobin proceeded to go home.