I Give You Permission To Reach Out And Touch Me.(Completed,editing).

Chapter Eighteen: Princeton

Princeton

I sit up and push the broken table pieces from under me and I let a frustrated sigh,'' That Stubborn woman.''  I tug on the end of my hair and take in the now ruined romantic scene.

      '' Sir is you alright,'' asks the piano player who rush over to my side and I sent him a chilling glare.

'' Tonight is ruined so you can leave,'' I grumble as the thoughts of Exploria rejecting me played in my mind and my distress started all over. The piano player gives me a sad look before shuffling off, leaving me with my lonesome. I drown in my sadness for awhile and couldn't believe what was going on and my insides were pulsing with so much anger and rage.

   I wanted to rush after Exploria and shake her repeatedly and slap some sense into her. She was afraid of letting me in and I was the same but hell I can't help the way I feel. I fall hard for that damn woman and she steps on me like I was a freaking chew toy. I stumble to my feet and waver side to side as I move to pick up the painting that she left behind. I painted it to show her all my motions, I wanted to express through my art skills. Its shows my devotion, my lust, love and care...it was all for her. I snatch up the painting and wrap it back up then I headed out the restaurant to face the cold night air.

I haul me a cab that lead to my apartment building where I face Mariya who was walking around in nothing but my tee shirt with a bag of cotton candy. I give her a confuse look as her eyes swift over my outfit,'' Where you go all dress up,'' she ask, placing a piece of blue colored cotton candy in her mouth as she walks past me and sank down on the couch.

       '' I had a fail business meeting,'' I grumble, taking the canvas and toss it to the side and not giving a damn if it broke. I undid the tie I had onand toss my dress shoes off before stumbling into the kitchen to grab my bottle of vodka.

                 '' Um...you're going to drink you sorrows away,'' she asks, rolling her vowels to draw her Mexican accent out while she bats her eyelashes at me. I look at her as if for the first time, she was like my sister but I don't feel that need to protect her. Mariya was strong on her on with or without the pride but damn she was pretty....wait wasn't that attraction right there? This woman needs to get out of my apartment before I lost my damn mind. I take a huge gulp out of the alcohol and let it burns my insides to make me numb.

        '' Another thing Mariya, will you get out my place in the matter of two days, okay?'' I didn't wait for her reply as I walk into my room and slam the door shut.

I dive into my bed and gulp down the vodka until it had my vision cloudy and sleepiness took over my senses soon sleep pulls me under. And all in my dreams was base on Exploria who only tempt me with her body and chanted voice that had me shaking. 

Damn that blond headed Vampire that I loved so much it hurt.

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*Two weeks later*

   Is it even possible to go into depressed from being in love?

Seeing her every once in the while at the gallery drives me insane, she gives me a pleasant smile and a hello before she walks off with the swift blow of her blond hair. I painted at less three painting so far but all turned out in a blur of colors and shows mine distress. The alcohol doesn't numb my damn heart so all I do is think of her.

          I knew I was going to end up in this problem...hell I even try to warn myself to run away from the second time I came upon Exploria but I didn't listen. I look at the glaring red streak on the white canvas as if it was mocking me. I let out a groan before I dip the paint brush in the black ink and start to apply random streaks until everything was a blur of mess.