I fell inlove with my bestfriend

How i feel

Perrie's POV
So nothing has really been happening even tough i lectured him he didnt seem to do it i was depressed cause i dont like him now i already love him did i mention it was already 3rd grading now? Well we changed our seats and i got 2 seats apart from zayn well at first i was excited but then lexie was also close she was just infront of me but oh well ever since then we were starting to be close again but its little by little thank to the help of my friend jade 😘 i love you gurl! As i said i dont like him i love him i dont know why but everytime im with him i fall for him but i always would get him close to Lexie cause i want him to be happy maybe not with me but thts okay atleast i know that im always right here for him when Lexie will hurt his heart again cause he was once was hurted by Jesy believe it or not i feel so low i always think to myself your ugly your fat your stupid your worthless thats why he doesnt like you i tried everything i can but he just dont notice me at all jade understands me more than i understand my self i would always smile when hes with lexie or jesy i act like everything is okay eventough its not and i would always remember that somtimes the best way to stay close to someone you love is to just stay as friends 😞💔 i know he isnt happy because of me hes happy because of Lexie but thats okay seeing him smile is enough for me its enough to fill the sadness in my heart sometime i would just like to say to my heart that stop loving him! Its not your job! Pumping my blood is your job! But oh well he would always ignore but i would always find a way just to check if hes okay or not im always updated
"Perrie wake up,WAKE UP!! "
"Huh,what?"
" Dude your daydreaming again"
"Oh sorry"
"Hey look at that!"
"What?" When i looked i saw zayn hugging Lexie but i manage to force a smile
"Aww arent they cute?" I said to them even though it hurts so bad i even dared him once to say will you marry me to Lexie even though i know it would hurt me 😞
"STOP DAYDREAMING!!" I sbap out of my thoughts
"Oh sorry hehehe" i said to jade
"Im starving cmon!" She said
"Me tooooo"

Authors note
so whatcha think? When would she confess? Should she even confess to him? :/ lemme know in the comments below!

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