My brothers

Sares

This chapter does contain self harming and thought of suicidal thoughts and language if you don't feel comfortable reading this chapter then please skip you have been warned

I was getting ready to head to my next class when the phone was going off "I'm a good kid" You thought but you knew the good act doesn't last long

"Y/n you're needed in the nurses office" (your teacher's name) said as he handed you a pass you couldn't help but think of the worst thing you had cut yourself do to a panic attack that went way over bored

"Hello Y/n I got something I need to talk to you about" the nurse said looking me in the eyes I knew she had to know something about me but it could be for my physical that I need done so I can play sports this year
" I got a report saying that someone has seen bandies all over your arms and I think they where just being concerned about you" she said I couldn't help but think that was more then bull shit ok no one cares as long as you have a smile on your face people won't question you.

" yeah I hurt my self playing soccer and that's what happened" you lied not wanted to know what would happen if you tell her the truth about what those bandages cover up all the pain and stress you carry you know this isn't right but you got yourself stuck in hole and you can't get out

" ok but I will still have to tell this to your brothers" she said you fake smiled at her knowing good fucken well that your brothers know you weren't playing soccer now when you get home you have to hear a long ass lecture from Jin

Time skip home

I got home feeling like I was going to be dead soon not that it mattered to me I managed to keep this whole thing under wraps intel today but I've been doing this for about a good week with no one to question me or ask if I was ok.

" hey Y/n can I talk to you" a voice said I walked to the kitchen to find Namjoon on his computer looking at something I walked to the kitchen and sat next to him he shut his computer down and looked at me

"Y/n are you feeling ok I got a call from the nurse saying you didn't feel ok" Namjoon said looking me in the eyes with lots of worry in them

"I'm fine just tired I didn't sleep well last night" I half lied I'm not ok but I also didn't sleep good because of nightmares and just the thought that I wasn't good enough for them they deserve everything and I'm the one holding them back

"Ok go upstairs and take a little nap and when the others get home we're all going to have a little talk"Namjoon said I walked up to my room looking for a way to leave so I don't have to deal with the others

Time skip to 2 hours ( I don't know what to put)

"Y/n can you come talk to us"someone asked I opens my eyes to see Yoongi I gave a small fake smile to him he picked me up and carried me down stairs

"Y/n honey we need to talk the school called Namjoon saying that you got hurt and weren't feeling good" Jin said looking at me I was sitting next to Yoongi and Jungkook on the couch while the others where on the other couch except Jimin and Tae they sat on the floor by the coffee table.

"I told Namjoon that I was tired so that's why I wasn't feeling good"you replied trying to keep up with your lie but you forgot Yoongi ALWAYS know when your lying about something

"What about you getting hurt what happened there"Namjoon asked shoot you have to come up with something and fast that's when a tear fell down your face you couldn't take it anymore you couldn't hide it anymore you needed someone to talk to but not everyone has to know

"Dance I fell and crashed into the wall and yeah..."you said trying to make sound believable but you know Namjoon has done the same thing before so hopefully they by it

"Ok well that's what we wanted to talk to you about you can go now"Hobi said y got up and headed to your room to try not to cry more or hold your tears off so no one would ask if you where ok
"I'm going to take a nap" Yoongi said heading up the stairs only to come knocking on your door
"Hey Y/n can I talk to you?" Yoongi asked sitting on my bed next to me but I had a tear in my eye so I had to whip it away before he could see

Yoongi POV

I walked to Y/n's room when she gave me the ok to come in it looked like she had been crying
"Y/n can I talk to you" I asked hoping she would talk to me about what's going on I knew good and well downstairs she would lie not that I'm completely agent what she did but where family and I want her to know that we will always be there for her

"Yoongi I-I have something to t-tell you" Y/n studded she looked up at me and I knew she has been crying I pulled her close to me and told her that she could tell me anything

"Yoongi I cut myself Yoongi and it's gotten worse"she told me tears running none stop she showed me her arms and there not that bad but still bad I don't want my little sister to suffer like this she doesn't deserve this

" oh...Y/n it's ok I'm not mad at you but what I will do is take your blade and trash it"I told her she nodded in response I don't want to see her like this to think that she needs to end her life no she doesn't I need her in my life something that Y/n and the others don't even know is that me and Y/n have a matching necklaces that connect to one another

"I need a hug Yoongi"Y/n whined I know she's in pain and I know she's hurting right now and it sucks to know that there's not much I can do for her right now I pulled her into a tight hug

"Please don't tell the others"she said into my chest I looked at her and kissed the top of her head

"Only Jin he can help with getting your cuts fixed so they won't be infected"I said Y/n pulled back from the hug and nodded I told her I was going to get her some water and I would be back. I threw the blades in my trash little did I know today was trash day but I got to the kitchen to Jin cooking I came over to Jin

"Hey Jin I need to talk to you"I said as I got a glass of water

"Sure what is it Yoongi"he asked I didn't know how to start this but

"Ok just don't tell anyone this but Y/n is cutting and I need your help"I said Jin looked like he was going to cry or pass out or even both

"Oh Y/n...." Jin said running up the stairs to Y/n's room

Jin's POV

When Yoongi told what Y/n was doing I had to make sure she was ok I know Y/n can always talk to Yoongi since the two of them are close but Y/n needs to know that all of us are there for her not just Yoongi but me and the others we all love her more then life it's self at some point

J-Jin help me please" Y/n cried as I walked in the room I pulled her into a hug as she cried into my chest I looked at her arm to see there where a few cuts I grabbed her first aid kit and got some things to clean her arm with so the cuts won't get infected

"Y/n look at me ok every thing is going to be ok" I said trying to calm her down I know she might think that we're mad at her but we're not being a teen gets hard sometimes I totally understand that.

Y/n POV

A week has past since I last cut myself Jin and Yoongi said that this would only stay between us and if I ever felt sad or needed someone to talk to they would be there for me no matter what and by this I can say I would NEVR trade my brothers in for anything I love my oppas very much.