to all my loved ones,
to those who have left my life,
and to those i don't yet know;
i'm sorry.
i've been a little lost for a while now
but i am hoping to find my way home soon.
the light at the end of the tunnel seems a bit brighter now,
but that also could be the headlights
of the train that is aiming for a hard collision
straight into me.
some days i feel like an astronaut
changing atmospheres every other moment
and struggling to balance the gravity of my
deep, heavy emotion.
you always said to reach for the stars, so i did.
now i'm stuck here in orbit
trapped within this illusion
of the dreams i once had
and they are weighing on me like the darkness of the never ending universe around me.
the truth is, the truth hurts.
my darkness isn't just my own to carry.
it seeps into the sunlight of those around me,
crawls it's' way into the crevices of their lives,
and takes root there.
it manifests,
it grows,
it destroys.
it has ruined me, and i'm sorry;
you're next.
it made me selfish.
the one way i could protect you
was to push you away.
but the one way to heal
is to destroy you, too.
so that's what depression does.
it crawls, it seeps, it oozes,
like a nightmare, it grows
and climbs, like an invasive species,
into your mind.
it destroys relationships, old and new.
it will destroy me and you.
YOU ARE READING
words of my mind
Poesiea conglomeration of words that pop into my mind and need to be put on paper. my friends seem to enjoy these things i create, so i'm choosing to share my words with the world. enjoy
