Our love was sensational

Am I enough

WARNING CHAPTER CONTAINS DEPRESSION SUICIDAL THOUGHTS AND SUICIDE ATTEMPT 

3 months later 

Cheryls pov

Toni is so good with Alex and Jason she does everything for them, I really feel like they would be better off without me I cant even stop them from crying I haven't told Toni how I feel because I dont want her to hate me. But today is the first day I am alone with the babies because Toni had to leave early for a serpent meeting. I am pulled out of my thoughts when Jason starts to cry I pick him up and try to soothe him

"Shshsh baby its okay" I soothe but he keeps crying 

Ace then barks and it scares Alex they both keep crying and they wont stop I put them in there cribs and I call Toni and begin to break down 

"TONI THEY WONT STOP CRYING" I manage to choke out

"Babe stay calm im on my way home " she soothes

When Toni gets home she stops the babies crying instantly I realize I am a useless mother so I head to the bathroom and lock the door. I then grab a razor blade and set it down, I get a pen and paper and write a note to my family 

"Dear Toni,Alex and Jason if you are reading this I am with the angels none of this was your fault but I feel useless like I cant do anything right I love you all so much love mama AKA Cheryl Blossom " I sob as I pick the blade up

I hear a knock on the door 

" Cheryl open the door" She demands

 When I dont open the door she kicks it down

Tonis pov 

When I get the door  down im met with Cheryl holding a blade I need to get the kids out so I call Betty

"Betty you need to take the twins Cheryl is hurting herself " I plead

"Tones im on my way" She assures me 

After 5 minutes Betty arrives and takes the twins

I walk over to Cheryl cautiously I look at her note realizing she was trying to kill herself 

"CHERYL WHAT THE FUCK" I scream at her

"Tones im sorry" She pleads 

"CHERYL YOUR SO SELFISH"I yell at her 

"TT I dont deserve you three" she cries 

"IM GOING OUT DONT FOLLOW" I shout 

I put on my serpent jacket and leave after a hour of walking around I go back home to apologize 

" Babe im home " I get no answer so I walk into the bathroom to see Cheryl unconscious 

"CHERYL NO" I call 911

"MY WIFE IS UNCONSCIOUS SHE TRIED TO KILL HERSELF " I scream 

The ambulance arrives and they take her to hospital and rush her into surgery

I wait five hours for news when a doctor come to me

"Are you family of Cheryl topaz" He asks 

"I am" I say worridly

"shes stable and awake you can see her"

I run into her room I hug and kiss her 

"Im sorry" she cries 

"hey its okay Im sorry for leaving you in that state Betty has the twins shes going to look after them while you recover but we get to see them everyday"I tell her

"I would like to see them just now" she asks 

I call Betty and she brings the kids and gives me them I lay them in Cheryls arms and get on the bed with her

"Hey babies" she smiles and kisses their foreheads

"I love you Jason I love you Alex and I love you Toni "She says proudly while hugging my side

"we love you " I smile and kiss her