As Long As Im Beautiful👑

Every girl surrounding me is so beautiful,
It's like the boys suddenly become dutiful.
Their smiles could blow anyone away,
and make the hottest guy stay.

Their look of perfection,
Against my ugly reflection. 
These girls have no flaws in sight,
But mine spill out in the light.

The skinny girls and the pretty girls,
Can pull off any pearls.
Yet I burry myself in over sized clothes,
To make sure no one can see my rolls pose.

There reflections are bright and slim,
Even there darkness looks like it goes to the gym.
Whilst I suffer with this figure,
This depression starts to trigger.

It hates me face and my weight,
Even at my best state.
It hates me more then I do myself,
I wish I could be anybody else.

My weight shouldn't stop my happiness,
But it does it causes great sadness.
So I cut lines hoping it will make me stop eating, 
And it does so instead I spend my days sleeping.

I havnt eaten in weeks its no longer funny,
as long as I'm skinny.
I feel like I'm dying but I shouldn't cave in,
I can't eat or I'll get fat and then I won't win.

Everything is a competition and I have to do more than try,
Even if I die.
I'm looking in a mirror and see bone,
But at least a load of boys are texting my phone.

That's all being skinny is about right?
Even tho my cost is that might die in the night. 
I was in hospital for not eating enough,
but that's a price to pay so it's tough.

Even though im skinny I'm not beautiful,
I'm glad I'm skinny even though my body is no longer move able.
Docters told me I'm going to die,
But at least I got the perfect size thighs.

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