I want to be loved by you <3 (Niall Horan Fanfic)

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AN: Heya guys ! Long time, no see, I know :P But better late than never ;) (Btw, I never said what song I was listening while I was writing my chapters, but for this one, it's too close, bye alex clare ;) )

11. 

(Niall's POV)

What am I going to do ? How can I live with myself when I know that I hurt Andrea ? I can't take it. And she won't even talk to me. I can't live with the regrets of loosing her. I can't live with the guilt. I'm not strong enough for that. The only way I can repay her is by apologising to her. And for her not to talk to me, I must have been a total jerk. I mean, we've never fought for nothing, we were all happy, and all of the sudden, she doesn't want to speak to me. I must have done something terrible. 

I was still laying on my bed, and I couldn't bring myself to go and talk to her. I just couldn't, knowing the fact that I hurt her really badly. I'm Niall, the happy leprechaun. I just can't hurt someone. It's against everything I've known. It's against everything I've been thought. 

I felt some tears running down my cheeks and I whiped them fast with the sleeve of my shirt. 

Liam is going to kill me. I promised I wouldn't hurt her. I promised I wouldn't hurt Andrea. And I did. Even when I promised. Nobody can trust me. I wonder how the boys did. I can't even trust in myself, now. I hurt a girl. I probably tried to kiss her and she didn't want to, but I forced her, or something. 

The more I was thinking about it, and the more I was lost. I didn't even remember what I did because of that woman. She spiked my drink, and I now, I couldn't remember what I did to Andrea. Because of her, I must loose Andrea. 

Half an hour later, I brought myself to stand up and went back again to Andrea's door. I knocked quietly, and I heard her sniffed. 

"Li-Liam, I to-told you I wa-was okay..." she cried. 

Everyone, even her brother could tell at that moment she wasn't okay. Even if she tried to fool everyone, I knew that what I had done had hurt her. More than anything. 

"It's... It's Niall..." my voice cracked.

I started shaking and choking on tears. I knew I would probably never get her back. I knew I had messed up. I was just idiot. An idiotic idiot. I couldn't forgive myself after that. I wouldn't be able to, even if Andrea did. Which she wouldn't.

I heard the door creaked open and I raised my head. I saw Andrea in the doorway, a little light behind her, and I couldn't see her face. I knew she was crying because I saw her shoulder shaking, but I didn't see any tears because of the light. 

All of the sudden, I engulfed her in a giant hug. Even if I knew that wouldn't change anything, I wanted to do it, one last time. She looked up at me, and I saw her eyes, all red and watering. 

"I'm... so so so sorry, Andrea..." I whispered. "I didn't know what I was doing." 

I was trying to explain to her that it wasn't my fault because someone spiked my drink, but I knew it wouldn't change anything. In her mind, I was guilty of everything I did. 

I released her, and I went back to my room, without turning back. At that moment, I wanted to kill myself. I couldn't hurt someone. I had always been so sweet and nice to everybody. Why did now, I had to be idiot. I always messed everything up. I'm sure I would messed my chance in one direction like I messed up my chance with Andrea. Liam would probably kill me or something. 

Speaking of which, I saw him in my doorway, and I got scared. What if he thought that it was my fault too ? Well, it was, but not entirely. It was the drink's fault ! He would beat the shit out of me. He would rip me into pieces because I made his sister cry. And I knew I didn't make up that. He would actually do it. 

Liam had always been protective to his sister, because he was the only brother and because he got bullied a lot at school. He didn't want his sisters to live the same thing as him. He didn't want them to be hurt. Exactly what I did. 

He came closer to my bed, and he sat down. I didn't expect him to be so calm. I expect him to punch me as soon as he'd see me... Maybe he wasn't mad after me. Maybe he knew I wouldn't do something like that... Maybe-

I spoke too soon, because as soon as he sat down, I felt his hand colliding with my jaw. It hurt like a bitch. I spat blood, and I saw Liam's eyes getting darker by the second. 

He made me fall off the bed ( I don't know how he did, but he did), and she started to punch me in the stomach. I guess I deserved that for hurting Andrea. I deserved every single thing that happened to me. 

He took a handfull of my hair in his hand, and he smashed my head on the ground. I heard footsteps comming closer to the room, but I couldn't see who it was. My head was getting lighter and I saw a feminine face and brown eyes.

Andrea.

That was my last thought, before drifting in unconsciousness. 

I woke up, hours later, and I had the biggest headache ever. My stomach and my head hurt like hell. I knew Liam did that, but I hoped that the other boys didn't know about this. 

I opened my eyes, slowly, and I saw a feminine face and brown eyes. Why was she still here ? I thought that she would join her brother. I thought she would beat me up, and maybe even kill me. She had every right of it, because I had hurt her. I started it. 

I tried to get up, but I soon fell back on the bed. 

"Shh," Andrea whispered. "You can't move, just for now. We think you had a concussion." 

What ? Liam had give me a concussion ? I didn't think he would go that far. 

"I'm... I'm so sorry Andrea.. Someone spiked my drink last night," I whispered. "I don't even remember what I did... But I know that it hurt you, and I deserved every bit of what happened today." 

I saw another tear ran down her cheek and I whiped it with my thumb. She then cupped my face between her hands, and she leaned in to kiss me. What ? Why was she doing that ? I had hurt her ! I didn't deserve that !

"I missed you, Niall," she whispered. 

I smiled and she did something that surprised me even more. 

"I love you," she said, looking afraid of what I would answer. 

I felt my heart beat faster and I smiled.

"I love you too." 

Everything fell back into it's place, now. 

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Awwww ! They got together again ! Hope you liked it, it was for my sibling, who couldn't wait for more :P so I uploaded. Sorry, it's short, I know, but I didn't have time with school and everything... 

Love you guys :)

-Fae xxx