Stay With Me ( 18+ Sope)

Chapter Three

Stay with me..
Chapter 3

Yoongi pov:

Goddamnit. Good job yoongs, you fucking dumbass. You let the cute nerdy guy take you home. Actually, screw that thought. What the fuck is home? Is it really just your house, or where you live? Or is it more? Isn't there supposed to be things in there that you need? We barely even have food, but hell do we have a shit ton of alcohol. I don't even have family, and now that I think about it, I don't think I've had one to begin with. I miss my dad, but there's not anything I can fucking do about that, is there? I don't know.. welp. Snap! Back to reality. I zoned out, AGAIN. Actually, fuck it. I walk to the guy's car with him, holding his hand. Did we look like a couple? Why was I sweating so much? My heart felt like it was gonna jump out of my chest. I hope he didn't notice. I sit in the passenger's seat, letting him drive because it was HIS car after all. I notice him checking me out from the mirror, and I feel my face getting red and hot. All of a sudden, he reaches his hand over, and I feel it on my thigh. I try to ignore it, but it's hard. I'm feeling all of these emotions at once, not knowing what they are. What the fuck yoongi? Stop being like this! Why are you letting him do this to you? Why do you like it? So many questions are running through my mind right now, and I don't know any answers to any of them. It's overwhelming, I'm still mad about my failed attempt earlier. God I hate myself. I break down crying in his car. He notices of course. He pulls the car over, looks at me, and then moves the hair out of my face with his hand. His touch was so..gentle..and soothing.. I wanted more.. but.. I can't have it. He's not mine. Not yet at least...

-TO BE CONTINUED-
P.S, sorry for the short chapter-