Your words cut like razor

chapter 1

hey guys hope you will like this fanfic i tried to write one before but it was a mess so i deleted it :( but anyways love youuuuu

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So where do I start, my name is Lili Black I'm 15 years old and I have a very odd life. I live in Melbourne. i have blond hair and blue eyes and lets not miss the big thing i selfharm for over 3 years now.

My father left me and my mother when i was two years old and my older sister was four (Summer) and my younges brother (Sam) and sister (Becky) which are twins where six months. My mother started drinking shortly after he left and started to abouse all of us.

Ever since my mother started to date Zack it became even worse then before.Zack dragged her into drugs and she became addicted to cockein.

My 12th birthday was when my life changed.....

-FLASHBACK-

I sit in my room quitly with my brother Sam and my two sisters Becky and Summer until the silence in broken by the shouting downstairs. Mum and Zack must be arguing again.There is a the famillier sound of glass being broken and at this point Sam, Becky and Summer left me in my room alone. I can hear him coming up the stairs ,he walked past Sam's room and burst into mines.

''What are you doing!!'' he shouts at me

''i..i'm playing'' my voice almos below whisper

''Well you shouldn't be!'' in his voice you can hear the anger and hate towords me. I was scared for my life at this point.

''I...I'm...I'm sorry'' I whisper he looks at me and smirks in a nasty way.

''Well you will be! Now i will give you your ponishment!!'' his devil grin placed on his face as he takes his belt off. I look at him with big eyes and start to cry however all he dose is give me a punch in the face to shut me, which will defenatly leave a mark after.

He pickes me up and push me on to my bed. I try to fight back but its no use whats so ever. I'm left on my own. There is nothing I can do to stop him, he is much stronger then me. I have no hope left.

After he rips my cloths off, he takes his pant off and I know exacly what will happen now. He is now inserting himself into me I scream in pain and punch him , I tell him to stop it.

After what seemed like a million years he stopped looked at me and started to punch me in my stomach multipul times he then pickes me up and smacked my body against a wall I can feel the blood dripping on to my back from my head I start to loose my conscious I can hear him shouting at me rude things and after when he threw his last punch at me all I can see is darkness

-END OF FLASHBACK-

So now I am sitting in my bathroom with the door locked. My tears are running down my face like never before. I reach for the little box under the sink and take my blade out. I roll my sleves up and dig the blade into me wrist and slid it alone multipul times i wince a little because of the pain but im used to it by now.

The thick red blood is driping from my arm on to the bathroom floor, I quickly ran my wrist under the cold running water it was when the stining came and I wrapped my wrist into some bandages and wiped my tears away.

After when I cleaned the bathroom I entered my room to start getting ready for school. I put some consiler on my face to cover my bruised face after Zack punching me last night. then I put some eyeliner and mascara and some lipgloss. Today wasn't really hot outside so put some black leggins on and a oversized lilic jumper. I run downstairs and grabbed an apple then I call for Sam and Becky because Summer was already downstair waiting for us.

''Sam,Becky you little gremlins move your ass downstairs now or we will be late for school!'' i shout at them to come downstairs and after about two minutes they are both running down stairs.

I grab my bag and shoved my uggs and started to walk to school without my sibblings because there where very popular and stuff but i wasnt. They tried to make me come and sit with them at lunch but i refused. i dont really fancy eating my lunch with some bitshes what can only stab people in the back and are fake as a baribie.