I knocked on Asher's door. "Can we talk?" I asked. Asher opened the door, he only had on pants, and his hair was messy. "What?" He asked. "I was kidding around with you Asher,"I said.
"I know that,"He said. "Then why make a big deal out of nothing?" I asked. "A big deal out of nothing Hayley?" He asked, "Are you serious?" "Yes,"I said. "That was a big deal,"He said.
"Asher you were outside for twenty minutes,"I said. "I still could've froze to death!" He yelled. I didn't say anything. "And you wouldn't have cared!" He yelled. "I'm sorry Asher!" I yelled back while crying.
"Sorry isn't enough Hayley,"Asher said, "Leave." I walked to my room, locked the door, and I pulled my phone out of my pocket. I played Trauma by NF. I started singing to the lyrics while crying:
[Verse 1] Say you're there when I feel helpless If that's true, why don't you help me? It's my fault, I know I'm selfish Stand alone, my soul is jealous It wants love, but I reject it Trade my joy for my protection
[Chorus] Grab my hand, I'm drowning I feel my heart pounding Why haven't you found me yet? I hold you so proudly Traumas, they surround me I wish you'd just love me back
[Verse 2] Say you're here, but I don't feel it Give me peace, but then you steal it Watch them laugh at all my secrets Scream and yell, but I feel speechless Ask for help, you call it weakness Lied and promised me my freedom
[Chorus] Grab my hand, I'm drowning I feel my heart pounding Why haven't you found me yet? I hold you so proudly Traumas, they surround me I wish you'd just love me back
[Outro] Grab my hand, I'm drowning I feel my heart pounding Why haven't you found me yet?
I stayed in my room, and I listen to this song so many times, that I called Andy, and I told him that I had an idea for a music video. He told me to meet him on set, and I told him alright.
I left my phone on my dresser, and I walked downstairs. "Where are you going?" Annie asked. I didn't answer, I grabbed my keys, walked out of the house, and I drove to set.
"Hey,"Andy said. I hugged Andy. "It's okay,"Andy said, "We're here for you." I nodded. "Ready to make the video?" Andy asked. "Yeah,"I said. I walked to my dressing room, and I got dressed:
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I was sitting on the bed, with my legs crossed, listening to his voicemail for the 50th time, while crying.
Him: Baby, I'm so sorry for what I did to you. I want you back, please. I didn't mean it. I'm sorry. Call me back when you can.
I listened to the voicemail so many times that I got sick of it. I threw the phone across the room, and it shattered. I started singing:
[Verse 1] Say you're there when I feel helpless If that's true, why don't you help me? It's my fault, I know I'm selfish Stand alone, my soul is jealous It wants love, but I reject it Trade my joy for my protection
I picked up a photo of him and I, and I shattered it. I continued singing:
[Chorus] Grab my hand, I'm drowning I feel my heart pounding Why haven't you found me yet? I hold you so proudly Traumas, they surround me I wish you'd just love me back
I ripped our photos up, and I threw them in the trash.
[Verse 2] Say you're here, but I don't feel it Give me peace, but then you steal it Watch them laugh at all my secrets Scream and yell, but I feel speechless Ask for help, you call it weakness Lied and promised me my freedom
I screamed. I screamed and I screamed and I screamed while crying.
[Chorus] Grab my hand, I'm drowning I feel my heart pounding Why haven't you found me yet? I hold you so proudly Traumas, they surround me I wish you'd just love me back
*The End*
Andy walked over to me. I was still crying. "Hayley,"Andy said. I continued crying. Andy didn't let me go, until I stopped crying. Andy let me go. "Text me when you get home,"Andy said.
I nodded, and I drove home. I walked upstairs to my room, and saw Asher sitting on my bed. I started crying because of what he was holding in his hand.
