When all else fails

Chapter 21

Sunday morning, I wake up before Mommy or Daddy come in. It gives me some time to think about our talk last night. 'Do I want to breastfeed?' a part of me says yes, I mean I am starting to love them. It was a fantasy of mine, but I don't know if I am ready. I have seen mommy naked, and as it was weird, I wasn't uncomfortable with it. I just don't know if I am ready for that. It is so confusing. As I am lost in thought I completely miss Mommy coming into my nursery. I jump a little as she touches my shoulder.

"There you are. You where so lost in your thoughts you didn't hear me come in or say good morning to you. What where you thinking about?" Mommy asks

"What we talked about last night. I am torn as to whether I want to or not."

"Well let's put that thought a side. And spend a lazy day today together. Daddy ran out to the store for some food. And tomorrow is going to be a big day. Do you remember what's going on?"

"Little care." I say feeling a little nervous about it.

"Oh, turn that frown upside down. You Know me, Beth and Brandon. We will all help you tomorrow."

"I will try mommy" I say as she lays me down and changes my very wet and messy diaper. She slides a pair of sleep pants up my legs leaving me in my nightgown. And takes me out for breakfast. After breakfast she sets me in my walker. Mommy can I have my tablet please?"

"Sure sweetie." She hands it over and I begin to look up information on why breastmilk acts the way it is. I realize soon into my research that there is a child lock on the internet and all the information I am getting is that its good for me. I decide to just play some games.

Daddy comes home and Mommy goes out to help bring in the bags, then put everything away. Daddy comes into the living room and sits on the couch. "Daddy, why have I just stayed home? like why didn't we all go to the store today?"

"Well Mommy and I thought you would want to take it slow next week you will be getting out of the house a lot." Daddy says.

"That makes since." After lunch and my nap, we all cuddle on the couch watching TV more adult shows. And really just enjoy each other's company. Mommy decided to order pizza for dinner. After dinner Mommy tells me its time for a bath and to get ready for bed, as we have an early day tomorrow.

After I am dressed for bed Mommy asks, "What would you like to wear for little care tomorrow?"

"Can I wear the puppy outfit?" I timidly ask

"Of course, you can sweetie." She places me on the floor as she pulls the outfit out and hangs it off the changing table. "Let me go get your evening bottle and we will cuddle relax for bed." It only takes a moment for her to return "Daddy went and made this for you as I was giving you your bath. Isn't he so smart?"

"Ahh huhhh." I say with a grin.

She picks me up and cradles me in her arm as she holds the bottle and starts to gently sing a lullaby to put me to sleep. It doesn't take the whole bottle and I am sleeping soundly.

I am awoken when it is still dark outside. "Princess I'm going to get you ready, if you don't wake too much you can continue to sleep. I know its really early" Mommy says as she picks me up taking me over to the changing table and getting me ready for the day. I doze in and out of the whole process. When she picks me up I fall asleep soundly again. I wake up with a little jump as my door is closed in the car. Mommy gets in the car and notices I was awake. "Oh I'm sorry sweetheart, I didn't mean to wake you. I placed a bottle next to you I can give you more for breakfast when we get to the center."