[DISCONTINUED] As Normal as it Gets (Julian × Apprentice × Asra)

⁶ Glee

I stand completely still and frozen as I watch Asra and Julian. Faust coiled around Julian's neck, Asra holding him tightly, and them making out fiercely. Is this what The Fool meant? I can't make myself look away at all...

It takes them a minute before they part, both of their faces flushed red. Faust stares at me and Asra looks to her, then me. Julian's gaze follows his as they quickly disentangle themselves from each other.

"(Y-y/n)! Uh... I..."

"I-... I swear... I can explain..."

Words fail both of them as I walk over. It seems this will be a lot easier than I thought. They watch me with fear as I step closer and closer. I can tell by the look in Julian's eyes that he wants to run, but I won't let him.

I wrap my arms over Julian's shoulders and kiss him deeply. When I pull away I move to Asra and do the same. Julian stares in disbelief.

"Thank you Asra for making this easier."

"I... you... really?"

I nod and explain to Julian everything. The whole story without avoiding details. Letting it all spill out of me with no hesitation. It felt great to get this weight off my chest.

Faust coiled herself around my arm as I finished. Julian seems... paler... is that bad?

"Julian are you ok?"

He shakes his head slightly.

"I don't know... I love you, (Y/n). And don't get me wrong I love Asra as well but..."

The words get caught in his throat and he can't get them out. I decide to lessen the burden a bit.

"Yes or no, are you ok with this?"

His eyes shoot open and he stares a bit. He opens his mouth to speak but closes it.

"Yes or no, Julian."

"(Y/n)-"

I shoot a glance at Asra before he says anything more than my name. I look back at Julian.

"I... I'm not sure..."

I sigh softly and drag Asra back to the hut. Julian stood frozen on the spot.

"Do me a favor and stay here. If I send Faust, come and get me ok?"

"What do you-"

"Ok?"

He nods and obeys as I walk back to Julian, Faust on my arm. I stand in front of him and cross my arms, letting Faust recoil around both.

"Listen. I just want-"

"(Y/n) please let me explain."

My jaw drops a bit, but I calm myself and nod.

"I love you both and I've almost... wanted this for a long time. The reason I'm not sure is because I have this pit in my stomach. Now that I can have this, I don't feel like I deserve this. Plus you two spend more time together... but I'm ok with that... just a little concerned I suppose..."

He stops and rubs the back of his neck.

"Why are you concerned Julian?"

"Well... you told me how Asra bottles his emotions sometimes and he lashes out when he can't control them anymore. Wh-what if... if he lashes at you."

"I'm more than capable of protecting myself."

"That's not what I mean... I mean like how he kept pulling you back a few nights back."

"But he wont have to bottle if he can get out his emotions every now and then. He had to keep them because you didn't know and I didn't like keeping it from you."

Realization seem to hit him just then because he looked up at me. His lips curled a bit and he looked around a bit. Then took a couple steps forward towards me, wrapping his arms around me and pulling me in. I hugged him back as I realize everything is gonna be alright now.

It took us a moment to part but we did. We walked back to the hut, hand in hand. Faust slithered through the window and Asra stood up, ready to bolt to us but, calmed down once he saw us walk in.

"So Asra, I have a question for you."

"Of course, what is it?"

Julian took a tiny step forward and stared at Asra.

"Are you ready to share?"

Asra looked at Julian confused until he looked back to me. His smile was soft and hardly noticeable. He looked back to Julian and nodded.

"Are you Ilya?"

Julian looked back at me and smiled, rubbing his thumb on the back of my hand.

"I am, yeah."