UNLIKELY DESIRE (Reylo)

𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐨𝐧𝐞 {Back Home}

I woke up with this oddly weird feeling that something wrong is about to happen. Yet, i wasn't sure about my predictions, because still i'm working on some of my Jedi skills.
As usual i brushed my teeth, dressed up in a dark brown suit and did my hair, just as everyday. Since i found this look very practical during my training sessions, i've never actually felt the need of change.
I stepped out of my tiny room on the planet Dagobah, where Luke Skywalker found the great master Yoda and full filed his training.
I love the fact that there's an opportunity for me to, maybe one day, be as strong with force as Luke and become a Jedi to use it for good and good only. I gently smiled to myself and headed towards Leia, who has kindly decided to be my tutor.
,,Good Morning, Master Leia.'' - I said, beaming.
She looked at me and grinned back as a sign of acceptance. Her lightly grey hair, Leia liked to tie in a tight bun. She always wore a fitting tune, which, long enough, almost touched the ground, but instead gently skimmed through.

,,You can start with the rocks. I hope you won't mind if i treat myself with a tea and come back soon enough. Good luck, Rey.''- She said softly. ,,Sure, no worries. Thank you, Master.'' I said in reply. Oh, how i loved calling her that way...
I lifted up the first few rocks and tried to strengthen myself to handle the others. Feel the force, Rey... Feel it running through your veins...
,,You're doing great! Keep up the good work.'' I heard Leia say to me from far away.
General Organa was always charming and genial towards me. Even afterwards, since her beloved husband, Han Solo, was brutally killed by... Kylo Ren.
A mortal enemy of mine. I hated to see his face, hear his deep low voice, his cooler than ice look. The memory of Kylo killing his father was terrifying and not worth recalling. Except i couldn't... almost every single thing i've done, since i met Ren, ended up thinking about him constantly.
As much as i would like to erase this creature of a man out of my brain, i also couldn't believe in his diametrical change of heart. Deep down, i knew that Ben Solo was hidden under that pathetic facade of a dark emperor, who loved nothing more but see people suffer and enjoy it as much as a regular person does breakfast. There has to be good in him... There still has to be Ben Solo in him... I liked to believe.
,,There is for sure no good in me, Rey.'' Suddenly i felt cold air surrounding me and that voice... the deep, horrifying voice.
,,Get out of my head, right at this moment!'' I yelled.
,,You're doing wrong. Don't disrespect me. And since we're already talking... With my tutoring you'd be able to lift up an entire spaceship and more.''
The worst thing about Kylo Ren is his ability to reach me at every moment, when i was using the force. We only saw each other and were able to make a conversation but nothing above that. We connected in this way and i despised it.
,,Why can't you let go of me!?''
,,I can't. It would be easier if you'd stop hearing and start listening, Rey.''
I felt shivers down my spine when he said my name. His tone was low, but comforting...
,,I need you to stop invading my privacy like that.'' - I said.
,,And I need you to listen to me. You're strong with force. Why not use that to control the entire galaxy, Rey? I know what your thinking. That you'll never betray your friends trust. But do they really care? It looks a little as if they only care to win in order to stand there, on the podium, in glory. They aim to use you like a doll, a key to success and only mind if something happens to you, when your needed. They don't mind losing you afterwards. But i do. I care for you. I can train you. Not even Leia... She's not powerful enough.''
,,Stop messing with my head! Stop!'' - I screamed and immediately dropped every single rock i was lifting. Ugh! The connection cut. I sat on the ground and began to wonder... what if it's actually true... what if Finn, Poe... they'd just leave me. No. It was impossible for me to dare thinking about them as someone like Kylo Ren. He wants me to do so, but i'll resist as long as i'm alive.
I walked up to Leia, who drank her tea on a tiny wooden plaque and sat beside her.
,,I saw you in fury. What happened?'' - She asked.
,,Your son. He happened.'' - I replied straight back, a but too aggressively.
,,Did he talk to you again?''
,,Yes.''
,,Rey, whatever Kylo tells you... it is not worth your trust.''
,,Yes, master. I'm just... it's difficult- i mean, why does he even bother to control me like that?''
,,He wants you to take his hand.''
,,I would never.''
Leia smiled and i replied with the same, relieved having Kylo Ren out of my headspace for a while.

Later, Chewie picked us both up in the Millennium Falcon and we all headed towards the main station on Coruscant, where i could finally see my friends, Poe Dameron and Finn after a few, extremely exhausting weeks of training on Dagobah.
Chewie growled in a way that i've recognized before, when he wanted to greet me, after long time not being in touch. I laughed and responded with a huge hug. Later he immediately did the same to Leia. We were all incredibly happy to get back home.

I was all beyond grateful for Poe and Finn, with whom i used to spend majority of my time, when i took a break from the jedi training.
Especially Finn... The thing was that back in the days, when we met, i felt a little bit of a pull between us. Now i cannot deny that i fell in love and hopefully he did too...