The World In My Words

I Called Late At Night

I called late at night,

from the closet in the hall.

Sitting at my feet,

was the vacuum used by all.

I told my mum I missed her,

and that I wanted to come home,

but the only thing that hit her,

was when I told her my mind was in mid roam.

I shared with her some thoughts I had,

like dying, starving and sleeping,

she told me she was oh so glad,

then she started weeping.

Minutes later I found myself,

upstairs in Sarah's apartment,

as I stood oh so quiet by the shelf,

I decided I was broken.

My mom was glad that I called,

said she loved me so,

and I as I stared blankly at the wall,

I knew I couldn't let my feelings show.

That night was rough for all of us,

I didn't even sleep,

my mind kept racing,

my heart was pacing,

and most of all I was alone.

I still regret my decision,

of leaving home to be here,

because when I think about it,

I've never had a normal year.

So in conclusion to this incident,

I refuse to come back here,

I want to be home with you guys,

because for now,

I want to be near.

David will go to college soon,

then forever I'll be alone,

without my best friend I will finish school,

and then go off on my own.

Waking up in this room I call mine,

isn't very grand,

because after all the energy put into it,

it will always be bland.

My walls are white,

and my friend is loud,

waking me too early,

never getting enough sleep in here,

I get ready in a hurry.

Here in Connecticut,

the people don't smile,

and the weather is awfully dreary.

The trucks rumble by,

and their horns blast too loud,

interrupting my learning.

The teachers are rude,

putting stress on my mood,

robbing sleep I need.

And the food here is bad,

making me sad,

because I gained weight,

making me fatty.

All in all,

I called late at night,

to say more than I want to come home,

but once I started speaking,

the only noise that I made,

was a sob and a confession of me breaking.

As I stood in the closet,

I hoped the night guard wouldn't hear me,

I spoke words I never wanted to deposit,

but out of my mouth they flew like robins,

laying eggs in your ears.

Please don't make me stay here guys,

I really can't stand another day,

I hope you know this isn't one of my lies,

I don't know how to ask another way.

Mom & Dad,

I love you so much,

but I hate how I'm so far away,

please understand I will pay you back,

I will work hard night and day.

With tears in my eyes I write these words,

meaning every one,

I am coming home next weekend,

and I hope we can decide then.

Before I end my speech,

I wanted to say thank you,

because I do know once this was my dream,

and you did your best to help me.

With that I will leave you two,

to think of what you'll say,

but once agin-

Mom & Dad,

 please don't make me stay.

Hi Guys, so I thought this wouldn't make sense to yo guys so I am going to explain it. I go to a boarding school and it's so complicated but I basically hate it here and it was once my biggest dream and sometimes I can't believe I even asked to come here.

Anyway, my name is Thayer Hannah and I am 14, I move a lot so writing is really how I stay sain. Thanks for reading my story, it's more for myself than for you guys but if you like it than cool.

I hope you have a great week! xoxo t.k.