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... I wake up with Hope that this was only a dream, it wasnt i was in a dark room, on my left i seen a men talking to another men,  on my right i seen benjamin he was beaten up tho.. was a kid fighting for my life? Its all getting weird.. why Benjamin is so important? A kid cant be my body guard..whatever i seen a lot of needles at the desk, are we a test victims? Acctually it wasnt so bad- kinda.. one of the needles gave me demon wings, Benjamin seem to have  pink eyes, i dont know what that was suppossed to mean but  he started to panic. Acctually to people who are like ,,how do you know there was needles in front of you or what color was benjamins eyes?,, That's called reflex and inspict- i think- eh i never go to School since my dad was too lazy, but i can feel like something is here or how does it look, anyway when they left Benjamin was talking about how hes gonna escape with me, i didnt listen- cause i didnt care. Benjamin  seem like looking for anything that will help him escape, i was hitting and kicking walls, i was a strange child. I know that at some point  Benjamin  broke a wall- im not sure how  and why but at least we escaped. While running away i was asking him questions like ,,how did you break the wall,, or ,,why you're beaten up,, he told me to shut up, cause im asking to many questions -_-
I also remmember Benjamin getting me to his house, i didnt see his parents, maybe they were at work? I mean i didnt see anything that looks like its his parents eh.. one year has passed year 2008, 28th August  we got pretty close, Benjamin started to be more happy and less creepy, acctually i wanted to start dating with him so one day i told him to come to my house, that was mistake... My dad was home, he never knew that i was always meetingu up with Benjamin, he said that he doesnt want me to talk to him anymore, so when he was asking me ,,son where are you going?,, I would respond ,,oh to the girl i like,, then he smiles at me. I think he doesnt want me to be gay, but its his fault, i think-. Benjamin came to house, dad was in kitchen and we were in my room. We were only talking u wee perverts- then i wanted to Ask him if he would wanna try dating, but damn it my dad came im and he was Just so mad. He told Benjamin to go away and never come back, he also called him names like..  faggot, gay freak, useless trash.. murderer?! My dad Just called my best friend ALA CRUSH a murderer? Why?   He never told me that he killed someone.. maybe my dad is Just out of arguments so he Just told some randome sh*t, well anyway he was also yelling at me cause i allow him to house i didnt listen to him. I asked dad why did he called him a murderer and all he said was ,, HE KILLED HIS OWN PARENTS,, Damn that explains why i never seen them, but why? I mean i know that my dad was good friends with his parents, but his parents were gay, AND NOW HE DOESNT WANT ME TO BE GAY?? Or he Just thought that one of the boys was a girl-, well all i can say is for past 2 years i didnt talk to him, not because i was scared or something, but because my dad locked his whole house so i wont leave..i thought that history with me and Benjamin is done. well.. year 2010, 16th december....-