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Panic attacks

Yes, I did use Andi Mac for inspiration on this chapter. DONT JUDGE ME!

David + Alex

David's POV

"Yo Dave" Alex says, knocking on my door. "Yea?" I asks as I quickly slip my shirt on. "You ready?" He asks coming inside my room. "Yep" I say smiling as he smiles back. "Come on dork" he says laughing a little as he puts his hand around my back and pushing me a bit forward.

We were in the car, heading to the party when I got a phone call. "Hey mom" I said as I put the phone up to my ear. "Dave, your dad is in the hospital" she says in a serious tone. "What?" I asks as my voice breaks. "He was in a accident and he won't wake up" my mom says as she starts to cry. "Mom..." I say as I start to cry too. Alex looks over to me worried. "It's ok you can visit soon, i love you" she said. "Love you too" I said and then I hi g up as more tears started to fall. "What's wrong?" Alex asks as he looks between me and the road. "My dad, he's in the hospital" I say trying to control my tears. "I'm so sorry dave. Do you wanna go back home?" He asks. "No it's ok we can still go" I say trying to not think about it. "Ok" was the last thing he said for the rest of the ride.

I wasn't in the party mode anymore. But I didn't wanna make people feel bad for me. So I stayed and acted like I was having fun.

I was sitting on the couch when something caught my eye. I turned my head and saw a girl all over Alex. I don't know why but I got like a ping of jealousy.

I've found men attractive before but I still think some girls are too. So I think I'm bi but I'm to scared to admit it to someone. I then decided to go outside to get some fresh air.

I walked down the stairs and the world started to turn. I started to breathe heavy and it felt like I was gonna pass out. I sat down on the bench and tried to catch my breath but I couldn't. It feels like I'm going to die and I can't stop it. I start to feel light headed as the world around me starts to flash in and out. "Help" I say as I look around. "Please someone" I say as I start to cry. "David" I hear someone say but I can't see them. "David" they say again and I look over to see Alex. "What's wrong" he asks as he comes down the stairs. "I dont know" I say as I continue to breath heavily. "I'll go get you some water" he says as he gets up. "No don't leave me" I say as I start to feel light headed again. "I'll be right back, I promise" he says as he runs back up the stairs.

"You're ok" he says as he rubs my back up and down as I drink the water. I felt batter now and I don't know if it was the water or that Alex is here with me now. "What happened?" He asks as I set the water down. "I don't know, I think I had a panic attack" I said being serious. I've never had one before but people told me what their like and I've been scared to have one ever since but I just had one and I'm terrified. "You wanna go home?" Alex asks for the second time tonight. "Yea" I said as I kept my head down. "Ok, let's go" he said as he got up and held his hand out for me to take it.

I took his hand and we walked out of the party with my hand in his and it stayed like that until we got to the house.

(it's a draft from a little while ago)