Paired

Something Unexpected

A/N: I know, I know, that updating after this long should probably be considered a crime and no excuse in the goddamn world can make up for it so, I'm not gonna give you any excuses and I am just going to apologize for doing something this awful, so SORRRYYYYYYYYYY. My updating is very irregular and I'm not gonna lie and say from now on it will be regular because it is not going to be but I can say that someday, somehow I will complete this story. Hope you like this chapter.

DISCLAIMER: I do not own Harry Potter nor that I want to 'cuz it already belongs to whom it should: J.K. Rowling.

Draco's POV:

I lay on the grass of the black lake waiting for her to say something but the expression lingering in her eyes suggests that she too is expecting the same from me.

The first hour of the class was filled with sneaky-but-not-so-awkward glances from both our sides, I could see the mixture of doubt and uncomfort in her while she sat with me through the whole class and I can see it now.

I finally say to her, 'You don't have to stay Granger, if you want to you can leave'

She answers after a few minutes, 'Of course I'm staying you may not care about the project but I do'

The hint of doubt and uncomfort is still there, she's nervous and I hate it. I don't want her to be nervous around me although she has the appropriate reasons to but still I want her to feel comfortable not intimidated or aghast by my presence.

Honestly, I feel guilty, I feel guilty for every troubled feeling that she inhabits even the one's which are not because of me, I wait for her to do something, to say something or to even actually discuss the damned project but she doesn't and I take advantage of that,

'look I'm sorry Herm-Granger, I've never been good at apologies and I'm guessing you know that already by what happened yesterday, I was suppose to apologize yesterday not harass you of your feelings, when I came from the Library I wasn't feeling angry or sad or as I expected instead I was overshadowed by guilt because whatever reason it was for I shouldn't have pushed it too far, shouldn't have pushed you to admit something you maybe weren't even feeling'

She finally looks into my eyes and says, 'what do you want to apologize for, Malfoy? You did as you wanted, use me and throw me away.'

Her hateful words make my heart shudder and more vulnerable by the seconds, she should be feeling the brokenness I feel when she says those words but her eyes tell otherwise, it's either that she's back to hating me or she's a really good actor, well whatever that it I'm not at the verge of giving up.

'I'll be honest, when we slept together for the second time I knew it wasn't a fucking one night stand, I knew that it was something real but our lives Granger, our lives are so different, and we'd both be kidding each other if we thought that this would work, like practically work, if someone even gets the hint of us being together I'm dead Granger, I'm literally dead ,so, I did the first thing which came into my mind that would mar even a little bit what we had and-'

'And it worked' she completed for me.

'yes, it did'

She retorts, 'if it worked then why are you trying to make it all better again or shall I say ruin it again?'

'I never said I wanted to get back together or become whatever we were before, I just didn't want you to hate me, I didn't want you to think that I used you, I didn't want you to think that I'd lower down that much, I just wanted everything to be good between us'

She looks away from me and then looks at me again, the disgust and uncomfort lingering on her side is gone but the coarseness still remains in her eyes, she asks, 'why do you think you'll literally die if you-'