Fallen Angle

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"Slut. Whore. Fat pig. Gag.. #jaelynnsafatwhore."

Jaelynn read the words coming across her notification bar aloud to herself while staring herself in the eyes. Her tear stained cheeks were a slight rosy color, with black streaks running down her face from her smeared mascara.

"You're strong jae. You made a promise to Gage. Don't break it." She said to herself reassuring, but the only person who could hear her words was her. Jaelynn eyes traveled down her half naked body in the fogged up bathroom mirror. They went everywhere, looking for all the things wrong with herself. She would do this every night reminding herself what her goal is. She wants to be as skinny as a Victoria's Secret model. What was her antidote? Starvation, counting calories, self harm, extreme amount of exercise.

Jaelynns phone rang out with a ding that seemed much much louder than the others. This distracted her from he nightly routine which made her even more upset because that means she would have to restart.

"Kill yourself stupid skank"

This one stung the back of her throat. It made her heart drop to the floor. He stomach to the roof. Her hands got clammy, and she could feel the loud sobs coming up her throat. She reacted so fast to clamping her mouth shut that her phone dropped out of her slick hands and onto the tile floor, cracking the screen.

Jaelynn looked at herself in the mirror that was now de-fogged. The tears came pouring out as she looked at the monster on the other side of the mirror. Horrified at what she saw.

"Promises where made to be broken" she muttered. Her hands made their way to the cabinet behind the mirror where her dad kept his shaver, razor, and it's blades. Her hands were now trembling, she grabbed the razor blade not giving a second thought.

Jaelynn closed the mirror and was met with herself again. " fat. Pig. Gag. Whore." She repeated back to herself with each word her voice growing more and more shaky.

Her eyes traveled down her arm all the way to her fingers, another thing she hates about herself. Without hesitation she put the blade to her wrist and drug it down her for arm. Wrist to elbow. She smiled at herself in the mirror knowing what she had just done.

" goodbye." She said before collapsing to the cold tiled floor. The last thing she saw before her eyes started rolling was the text that drove her to do it. "We both end up happy in the end." She thought before her eyes closed. For good this time.