LEAVE IT UNBROKEN (Season 2 of THE PROMISE)

When new life starts

LOUISE'S pov

JOKER ANG TADHANA! Ang hilig manakit. Ang hilig manloko. Ang hilig magpaasa..

ANG GALING NIYA..

ANG GALING NIYA...

ANG GALING NIYA...

                                              MAGPAASA...

AT ANG GALING KO 

ANG GALING KO...

MAGPALOKO..

This is UNFAIR! X( I've been good to everyone! Yet this is what I've got? TEARS! TEARS! Lagi na lang tears! Can't it be smile? Kelan ba ko sasaya? Kelan ko ba makakamtan ang happiness??? 

Kailan ako titigil sa pag-asa?  T_____________T ansakit kasi eh.. kailan kaya ako titigil sa pagmamahal sa ungas na yun na walang ibang ginawa kundi pasakitan ako! T____T Di niya ba alam na masakit na? Di niya ba alam na ambiga na ng dinadala ko?? Kung pwede lang tumalikod from all these problems! NAgawa ko na, kasi ngayon feeling ko bibigay na ko.. FEELING ko wala na kong makakapitan.. Feeling ko tinalikuran na ako ng mundo.. Lahat na ata ng sakit naranasan ko  na.. 

NASAAN AKO NGAYON?? Andito ko sa ilalim ng ulan.. dito lang ako.. dito lang ako hanggang matauhan ako! Kasi... 

araw-araw sinasampal ko na tong walang kwenta kong sarili para tumigil na sa pagmamahal ko sa taong yun! 

KASO! T_________________________T ansakit. waepek.. mas sumasakit ang dibdib ko habang iniisip kong... mawawala siya sakin,.

ELdridge? Kulang pa ba yung mga ginawa ko?? Bakit niyo nagawa yun? Paano na ko ngayon?? Sinong tatanggap sakin?? 

T_______________________________________________________________________T

PAIN. RAIN,INSANE 

When some one says they love u it just means they love u for that day the next day they could be running away with your best friend.

Wala na atang hihigit pa sa pain na nararamdaman ko.. Grabe. . Pero sa totoo lang despite of everything i’ve seen parang there is still part of me that want to change all the words i said.. Pero mas tumindi yung pain kaya nadagdagan ang galit,.. I don’t know kung bakit naging ganun si Gee..

Sa likod ng mga sakit na nararanasan ko, isa sa mga pinagpapasalamat ko is I am Christian.. Not by words but by deeds.. Everything happens for a reason. I don’t have any idea what to do next..

All I know now is that I need time.. Time to heal the pain. Time to recover after everything that had happened.. Time to bring back who I used to be before the incident.. I’m thankful that my parents are open minded about those matters. They do understand me.. They support me.. I even talked to my Pastor, since I want space between Eld and me I initiated to stay away first,.. he seemed to agree with me..

Now I’m attending in PQUE church.. I’m living in Kuya Ace’s house.. Since our family were close naman.. I’ve explained to them everything naman.. Naintindihan nila ko.. At first, si JB pa yung nahirapan.. Super nagalit siya sa nalaman nya.. Kaya nga hindi niya na daw hahayaang maulit ulit yun.. After nun lagi niya gusto kami magkasama. Magkakasama kaming 3 nila Kuya Ace at JB..

Ilang weeks na din ang nakakaraan after ng nangyare.. I’m doing good na naman.. ewan ko lang sila.. Clark used to call everyday pero I declined to answer..  Eld even attempting to call ev’ry hour of the day.. Mas lalong ayoko siyang makausap.. I forgave him na naman it’s just I wasn’t ready to face him though I haven’t listened yet to his explanation.. Gee didn’t care calling me nor texting me.. I was trying my very best to move on.. I know I’m not fully recovered pa nga lang especially to eld.. 

It's unfair.. Mahal ko siya.. ang tanong mahal niya ba ko?  Lahat ba talaga ng nagmamahal kailangang masaktan? 

FROM THIS MOMENT ON.. 

I know what to do... 

I just have to MOVE ON.. 

to find someone who'll love me no matter what it'll takes...

I just have to love Clark.. He's all I've got...