Delusions (depressed deku)

What happened...?

I was stuck back in that dark room and I heard Kacchan saying,
"Midoriya"
"Midoriya"
"MIDORIYA!"
"GAH!" I screamed and sprung up to see Asui, Uraraka, and Yaoyorozu.
"Deku! What happened last night!?"
Uraraka said
"Yeah... we were all really worried about you Midoriya..."
Yaoyorozu said.
"Come to think of it, you were crying and hyperventilating last night... and you were mumbling something."
"Don't worry about my useless self..."
I mumbled
"What was that, Deku?"
"Oh uh... I said I was just having a bad dream so don't worry about me!"
"But... that doesn't really explain you laying on the ground"
"Uh... I was just really tired!"
That was a half truth. I was really tired because I hadn't slept in a couple weeks.
"So like I said... just don't worry about me!"
All though I would like to tell the truth for once, I shouldn't have people be worrying about me. My useless, worthless self.
You are really worthless! You constantly lie! Katsuki was right! You should just take a swan dive off the roof!
NO! Please just shut up!
Why don't you just tell your stupid little friends! They won't even care about you anyway!
"LEAVE ME ALONE!" I yelled
"Us...? D-Deku...?"
"NO!" I said surprised
I can't take this!
"I didn't mean you guys!"
"I-it's ok Deku... we'll just leave you alone for a while."
"Wait... Uraraka please..." I whispered
I guess she didn't hear me.
I messed up so bad! I won't be able to have friends...
If they even are your friends!
Can you please just LEAVE ME ALONE! This is all your fault!
My my... your always so quick to pin the blame on someone else...
"SHUT UP!" I screamed
I ran to my room and searched everywhere for my razor.
"Damn it where is it!" I whispered
I checked the pockets in my uniform pants and I found it there. I was quickly and swiftly adding cuts to my arms until I became lightheaded. I was slowly becoming insane and then I started laughing like a psychopath and then I aimed the razor at my stomach nearly stabbing myself
Do it....
The voice said. I nearly jabbed the blade into my stomach until I heard a voice from outside say, "hey Midoriya, it's six-thirty. School starts in thirty-five minutes"
I quickly stuffed the razor under my bed and then yelled
"Coming!"