More than friends||Stray kids||Male oc

two.

     I laid in bed with thoughts running around, my sheets ruffled against me as i sighed deeply. Being a Kpop idol was stressful than i thought it was, i caressed my forehead from lack of sleep. It was only but my first time every encountering a strange fan . I turned over to my side thinking negative thoughts on my career, i was surprised to see felix sleeping soundly. He was,,,cute. the negative thoughts soon disappeared as i admired the older's endearing face. I haven't really told the others about my, sexuality. Even though we've known each other since what? 3 months?

   I'm just not that comfortable with them on that, i could openly see that they are very open to lgbtq+. But would their views change on me when they find out i'm gay? Negative thoughts came in again, it quickly disappeared when felix softly grabbed my hand. i could feel my ears reddening at his sudden action, i shouldn't be acting like this. he's my best friend for heaven's sake!

I quickly calm down, letting my hand face felix's hand. I cant believe we're holding hands, i tighten my hold, drifting into a deep slumber. I wish this interaction would last forever.

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I blinked a couple times, eyes blurry the first time, it's morning already?  i turned my head to see if felix was next to me, he was! "oh? he's still asleep?" i whispered, careful enough not to wake him up. He was quite pretty sleeping, i must be a sick person to stare at someone sleeping. I regain consciousness and sat up, i wonder if the others are awake.

I stood up and tidied myself up a bit before going to the main room, i see. It was only me and jisung awake, he was busily eating his breakfast. too busy to notice me sitting next to him, "ah- cereal again?" i said making a conversation with the rapper. "mhm, i was too lazy to find it cook something different" He responded as he groggily ate his charms, i smiled as i ruffled his hair. "Still asleep huh?" i chuckled as i stood up to go and make some breakfast to start the day. just some eggs will do, i glance over to jisung. cute.

As i was busily making my breakfast, a loud sudden voice came about. "good morning !" ah it was none other than chan. I finally found out what accent he had, it was Australian. the amount of questions i had to ask when i found out he was from Australia. "mornin' chan" i replied, finishing my breakfast and setting it down on a plate. i sat next to jisung and quietly ate my food in piece, "rough day yesterday huh?" Chan said as i remembered the strange fan grabbing me and forcing me to take pictures with them.

"yeah it was." I bluntly responded, i get how chan was trying to make a conversation but why that topic? I could tell that he knew i didn't wanna talk about it and changed the subject, "well,uhm, we got a long day ahead of us huh?" he chuckled as he went to the fridge to grab some food.

The other members soon came down, discussing topics with one another. Felix came last and i couldn't help but linger my stare onto him, i brushed it off and set my plate down to wash it in the sink. "cant wait for more practices." I said with an annoyed voice, "oh cmon Minjun, it's not that bad" Seungmin said trying to cheer me up.

"it is bad. i hate getting sweaty and when it sticks onto you, it feels gross." I explained as i tried to reason with the older. He gave me a look of assurance, no one's on my side with the practices huh? I sat down on the couch waiting for the others to finish their breakfast so we could start practicing in the practice room. Jisung sat down next to me as i laid my head on his shoulders,  i grinned as i scrolled on my phone. Jisung eyes secretly watching what was on my phone, finally the rest of the members were done eating.

Which means to practice until 3:00 ! fun!

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I was getting tired, like sickly tired. I felt nauseous, i just felt sick in general. No one told me being a idol was this hard. I inhaled deeply as i tiredly sat down and gulped down the rest of my water. it was 12:00, which meant break time for an hour. which also means, "lunch". "do you guys wanna get takeout?" Changbin suggested as we both agreed, i just can't wait for some good food in my stomach.

We got at the restaurant and ordered our food to pick up, hopefully no fans see us. "we only got like thirty minutes to eat so eat fast before our manager gets mad." Bangchan stated as he shows us the time, "i wish our manager wasn't THAT strict" Hyunjin complained as i agreed, "yeah i mean we always practice and write songs and then care for the fans." I replied with reasons. "I just wished, she kind of understood more. like give us extra minutes."

they all nodded as the waiter came in with our food, we all ate silently, well expect for hyunjin and seungmin. they were too busily arguing onto which food tasted the best, i giggled at their odd behavior. Maybe i do like being a kpop idol.

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