Love lost: Idenity won

The End Is Just A Hidden Begining

I couldnt believe the text on my phone. The one from my boyfriend. We'd been together for 3 days short of a year now. "He is my everything" I said speaking to no one but myself. "I think we are through". Thats what he'd said. Over and done in the blink of one eye. I began to cry thinking "What have i done"? Why was I all of a sudden not good enough? Me. Bella Marie. I had been livivg my life according to this one guy and now he's tossing me aside like yesterday's paper. Going into the bathroom I started a shower. Thats where I always went things got hard. Only this time something was different. I sobbed and screamed as I layed on the shower floor. I kept thinking where is my razor, but I never picked it up. Before I would have been standing in a puddle of my own blood by now. But I wasn't. I felt it. I wanted it. But I didn't. However, before I could figure that out I went into a panic attack, unable to get enough oxygen i passed out. That was almost normal for me though. I woke up in a sad mood but I didnt cry. I would not let myself cry anymore. I didnt eat and I couldn't sleep. Not even a single smile, I began to feel like the person I often slipped into being. A shadow. Of what? Well, of me. I was only a shadow my entire life of a girl that I didn't know existed. All in just a few months I lost myself and found myself. I wasn't quite sure who I  was becoming but I knew I was changing. I guess I'd find out soon if it was a good or bad change.

This is the first chapter of my book, please leave comments, i hope that you like it.