I'll Never Say Goodbye (Trevor Moran Fan-fiction)

Chapter 3 - Depression

(Can I just say I just read back on my whole fanfic and am cringing so hard like how can you read this omg. I'm going to try and make it better and like actually tolerable. Like the whole time I was like *kian and Jc awkward smile*😬)

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*Connors Pov*

Life, a four letter word that can flip your world upside down in the blink of an eye.

A couple years ago, I would have never even thought that I would end up doing what I'm doing right now. Just the simple fact that Sienna has to go through this whole fiasco and I can't do anything about it kills me.

I mean it's so hard for me to swallow the fact that I am only a step brother, I can't even imagine what it would be like to find out you have a twin and multiple half siblings. That's just insane.

As much as this situation sucks however, I know I can't just wallow up in the negativity of it all.

See the way I see it, she finally has a fresh start. Back in Minnesota her life was a lie, a lie she lived day in and day out. Here she can start new, be herself and embrace it. Nothing will be in her way to tear her down. With me all she was doing was taking one step forward and two steps back. Now she has a chance.

Sadly, it just won't be with me.

*Siennas Pov*

The car ride there was all to short.

I was trying to make the best of this situation. I tried real hard to get myself to think about all the positive things about starting a new life but I just couldn't.

I can't.

I feel like I'm just getting up and leaving my whole life behind. My childhood just stripped away from me right before my own eyes. I'm 15, I have trouble deciding what drink to get at Starbucks, how am I supposed to make these life decisions?

My mom used to tell me when I was little that I was a strong girl. She said that no matter what somebody did or what happened to me I always found the positive.

Sadly when your older life isn't that easy anymore.

I feel like a brat. There's people starving in the world, people who have depression, people who are homeless and yet they can be content. Why can't I seem to be?

The thing that scares me the most is I don't know why I feel like this. I should be happy to leave my father, he was the one who left me anyway. Also, the Grier's are amazing, they already feel like family to me.

But most of all, I have trevor. He's made me feel like a million bucks. I love him I know I do, and he makes me happy to.

Then why, why do I feel so unhappy at the same time? Why am I so selfish! I have such a good life and I'm just basking in the bad stuff.

I will never learn will I. I'll always just be a little brat, never looking at all the good things I have and appreciating them.

I felt my palms start to sweat at all these thought swirling inside the depths of my brain. I rubbed them against my jeans nervously as I tried to soothe my mind, but it was no use.

I looked over at Connor in hopes to maybe see something good in my life and make me feel happy again. That was the worst mistake I ever made.

When I looked at him I didn't see all of the amazing memories we had made together. Instead I saw all of my faults destroying him to bits.

It's my fault he has to go through this, its my fault that his world was turned upside down. How could he even love me anymore? I wouldn't blame him if he didn't.

In fact I wouldn't blame anyone for not loving me. Even Trevor....

As we drove down the highway towards my new home my brain are me alive. Slowly but surely I believed more and more of what my brain was telling me and as we pulled up to the front doors of my new home I became one thing I promised myself I'd never become again.

Depressed.

It just seems like life is just a merry go round.

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Filler bc I never updated even though you all said you wanted me to keep goo with this book again oops. I tried to write this chapter so many times I just don't know what to do with this story all I know is how I want it to end, which doesn't really help. (Wow u should leave suggestions.)

I honestly feel like trevor, promising new content like every week and only posting once in a blue moon while adding 'very settle' promo. Btw follow me on Twitter @moransmofo 😂