Present time
SARAH POV:
After what happened with Gerald and I, I decided to focus all my time and energy on my career and things that I have always wanted to do... With perseverance I was able to finish my studies.... And the most important change in my life................
At my Condo... YES, you heard it right........................ Ha ha ha.. FREEDOM, My parents finally granted some of my wishes.
INDEPENDENCE
My parents finally agreed to let me live on my own... It was hard at first but I was able to adopt to my new living situations. My mom wanted me to take 2 of our kasambahay pero I stuck to my gun........." NO YAYA OR KATULONG FOR ME".. I wanted to experience the hardship of life on my own.. I cooked my own food( sometimes nasusunog) pero OK lang since I cooked it, I washed my own clothes ( katuwa nga eh, i was not aware that I was supposed to separate the colored from the whites..... ha ha ha, paglabas ng whites ko naging technic color), I cleaned my own place..... At times Ate Juday and Ate Sharon would stopped by to help me with things I need for my place............(Wow!!! SARAP PAKINGGAN ,,My own place)
Boss VIc would normally send Ate Anna to help me fix my schedules and help me organized my clothes at times.. It felt so good to finally experience all of it on my own
The news of me moving out was the talk of the town. TO be expected negative write ups came out again........ Everyone gave their own opinion on the reason why I have decided to finally get my own place. Would you believe their was even polls regarding about it...
It just so funny that people find my life somewhat interesting.........
TO MAKE MY OWN DECISION
Along with the independence, I was able to finally make my own decision. Decision on everything?? ................. I wished, Right!!! Mahirap kasi sa ngayon, I have to think about the other people that will be affected if i make the wrong decision.. so sa ngayon I still listened to my parents and my management .... Pero take note " ONLY REGARDING PROJECTS"... Nothing to do with my personal life, In short my LOVE LIFE....... SLOWLY BUT SURELY diba... At least this is the start
No complaints coming from me, the lord have blessed me with so many new endorsement, local shows and abroad, movies and off course the SARAH G LIVE was going strong,
I started to experience life.... I travel abroad with friends most especially with Ate Juday and Ate Sharon... I still remember the last appearance of Ate Juday in my shoe, she wanted me to experience life , life outside show business.... She was totally right!!........... ibang iba and mundo sa labas, dapat pala matagal ko nang ginawa yon. Kung saan saan ako nagpunta, ang sarap ng pakiramdam na malaya ka..... hay buhay!!!
Naalala ko ang sabi ni CHOKI sa akin when he guested on my show... " BABY SARAH, YOU ONLY GET ONE SHOT AT LIFE, MAKE THE MOST OUT OF IT"........
Life was good but off course one thing was missing ......... HUlaan nyo. Yup totally right.. " A LOVE LIFE"
Guys have asked me out.... To name a few.. SAM MILBY, KEAN CIPRIANO, JAKE CUENCA, PAOLO AVELINO and MIGUEL VILLAFUERTE.... I remember what Gerlad would tell me before... "Sarah, your so simple yet so beautiful".... I would hit him on the shoulder every time I hear him say that to me....
Sabi ko nga sa kanya "ECHOSERO' sya.. I would even cover my face with my hand... I don't know why but I have never found myself beautiful at all.... Di tulad nina Anne Curtis, Bea Alonzo and so many more.....
Sam and I went out for a few dates. I guess it was not meant to be. He's a good person and a confidant. I may say one of the closest guy in my life. A TRUE FRIEND, you heard it right ..... A FRIEND, nothing more nothing else.... ha ha ha choosy pa no..
MV, on the other hand did everything to win my heart..... Wine and Dine, he's very respectful, maalala, maalaga and palaging nandiyan... everything that a woman would want and look for a future boyfriend or even a husband... I saw all his good qualities as a person, pero wala talaga...
Ewan ko ba, Something was off, I cant point my finger to it... I guess i was looking for something..... pati nga ako hindi ko rin alam.. Maybe when I see it then I'll know..... Sabi nga ng ibang friends ko masyado raw akong pihikan,, their is no such thing as a perfect guy daw... Feeling ko ang ganda ganda ko no..... ha ha ha
God, Ill be thirty in a few years ( 2 years to be exact) but my LOVE LIFE is still a big zero... Lord, kelan po ba talaga.. Im not rushing ha, pero syempre im not getting any younger anymore... Bigyan nyo naman ako ng sign.. kahit konti lang.
SUDDENLY SARAH'S PHONE WAS RINGING, It was Mommy Divine on the other line.
Sarah: Hi mom! Musta na po my?
Mommy Divine: Everything is fine. I just called to asked if your stopping by here later on after your shoot.
Sarah: I'm not sure po mommy, Ill try if we finish early.. But if not ill try to come by this weekend... Miss nyo po ako no
Mommy Divine: syempre naman....This is the new endorsement, right?
Sarah: Yes po my. They told me yesterday that Im suppose to be working with another celebrity but I'm not sure who's the other endorser. Out of the country daw po, last night ang dating.. Ill find out by today when I get to the location of the shoot.
My, I have to go. I'll try to call u later.. Love you po my.
Mommy Divine: Sige anak, ingat ka ha. Anak, sorry and remember that I love you always.... Lahat kami.
Mommy Divine POV:
Sorry, sorry talaga anak( she said to herself).... Again and again, I will never be tired in saying sorry to her...Alam ko, she made the decision but she knew how I felt about Gerald... I was so closed minded before.. I thought I was being a good mother,pero I never realized that I was controlling every bit of her life..... Until, until I saw her in pain... SO MUCH PAIN. She never ever complained about anything... She kept it to herself... Ika nga nila THE SHOW MUST GO ON..
I saw her smile every time but I knew deep inside she was hurting, hurting really bad......... my princess eyes was gloomy, gone was the sparkle in her eyes, the laughter that we always used to hear was not the same any more..... My poor child was trying to be brave in front of the camera and around her family, friends and supporters............ She was mending a broken heart and I cant do anything to ease the pain............
sabi nya "Mommy it's my decision, wala kayong kasalanan dito" But I know deep inside my heart and soul that I am the one that caused that much PAIN to my sweet and loving daughter..... I hope in time I can forgive myself...................................
