Feelings....

Closure😁

Het is ondertussen al ruim 2 jaar later. And I think it's safe to say that I've moved on from everything. I've seen Sjoerd and the others once, last year at Halloween. And it wasn't weird or awkward. We hung out just as friends and it was nice to finally know that I've let go of everything. That I have closure with the feelings I had back then. 2 years ago I thought it was the end of the world that he didn't reciprocate my feelings. Now I don't even know what I ever saw in the guy to begin with.

But now I really understand the quote:" some people are meant to cross your path, but not all are of them are meant to stay with you till the end.

Cause in the past two years I've met new people, made new friends. But I've also lost and became way less close with a fair share of people that I, at the time thought I would be friends with for years to come. But I guess that's life though. Things you lose will make way for better things.

And yes I admit I've done some stupid stuff that I'm not proud of, even worse that hurt not only myself but other people to. And I'm a totally different person than I was two years ago. Doesn't mean that that is a bad thing though, it just means I'm different, I've changed, me and my environment changed me. And sometimes I think it's for the better, and sometimes I just wish I could go back to being that naïeve 14 year old girl. Then again if I've never met those guys I could've been an entirely different person, maybe better, maybe worse. I guess we'll never know.