Gigikadrex

How It Came To Be

Do dreams come true?

OR

Should I say , do Day Dream come true?... Because I'm a day dreamer . I'm safe in my dreams even though I did have some scary dreams at night (not all night though) but,  when I'm day dreaming I feel so safe. My day dream is a place I express myself openly and find myself doing things I love and admire... Yah singing, raping,  acting.. Just whatever it is.  I can be anything in my day dream.
Yeah, I love to rap but em not actually a good rapper.
When I started rapping, I was in JSS1 and also started writing or would I say I had passion for writing since primary school,  when myself my brothers and Susan would role play  and act, changing clothes in our room... It was fun. Then I did bring up an ideal of what drama to act and my senior brother would add up. Soon it started , I wrote my very first short drama of not more than 5 page  with my little brother Michael called "GOLDEN WATCH"  it's funny whenever I think about it. But I admit my childhood was fun
Golden watch was more of action and Magic.... Yes! We acted it!.
Our parents would spy on us and say 'well done o!'
Oh, I remember the day my brother said this word "I AM voldermon! (if the spelling is correct lol) "...hahaha... If you've  watched 'Harry Potter ' you would know exactly what I'm talking about... When he said that, he made some moves... Ouch... Which wasn't nice because he broke the baby bath tub we had,  Blue in color. Ouch!  Hahaha.. I can't stop  laughing right now... Believe me our childhood was so much fun more like a drama..much better than this youth hood or adult hood.
Adult hood you have to start making decision of whom you are or what you want to be... Jezzz it's so hard ..you do more of thinking. Arrrr...
So, JSS1 I started rapping and writing lyrics in school and boom I was a famous kid in school, every Wednesday students what's to hear/listen to me rap.
I was really a famous kid and I was loved by my seniors.
People called me names.. I mean stage or nickname like Young Nicki Minaj, Rock Nicki etc.
Young Nicki was much more preferably , I liked the nickname... But just one day a class mate told me I rap like Nicki Minaj which was the reason why they called me Young Nicki Minaj... And who's Nicki Minaj ??
I was curious to know, I checked the internet and it was a wow... She's very beautiful and the first song l listened to was Moment featuring Drake... It was lit!  Then VA VA vom , Girlfriend (BFF).. Stuff... Pound the alarm... I watched the videos too... Suddenly I had it up all in my head that I want to be like her,  I wanted to record my rap too... I wanted her to listen to it, I wanted to be famous too just like her in fact when I created my IG account she was the first artist I followed.  She was my role model.  Lolx.
Later on at school I was told by some class mates that I can't be like her, saying 'I don't have what she ( Nicki Minaj)  has'
"you no set" it means I'm not a size eight like Nicki.
Too bad...i wanted to be a model too and has history would say it , all models are slim so girl I need to just be myself.
I was in JSS2 and the hell I was still well known by seniors...I had a school mother and school father which makes things easier at school. I wasn't punished by seniors or prefect and even if I was then it's a random punishment give to the whole class but anything apart from that was 'they got my back '. Seniors would call me by my nickname 'Young Nicki' , some would ask me to rap for them and I'll just smile.
I had two special seniors, senior. Falmata and senior. Williams known as willytwist and some students calls him senior virus... Well Williams doesn't like it when he's called Snr.Virus, he punished anyone who calls him by the name.
Senior Williams was very good and creative as an Art student, he's good at drawing like I mean really good..whenever I look at his art work I'm like WOW.
Senior Falmata was really cool, sweet and lovely. She left our school earlier, she had to get married, she's an Hausa but honestly I loved her so much, she was the first person to really celebrate my birthday at school, she bought me a lot of things. She guided me with my assignment and spent time talking to me looking at my art work and dress design sketches...she was so sweet and made me always happy...she would say to her other class mates 'she's my school daughter ' and tell other students about me... She was a really amazing person.
She bought me a pink hard cover book where I sketched designs. I was in love with fashion. I drew designs from my head, ball gowns and more. But it was stolen at end. The day it got missing I cried like a baby, it was like my life. They were designed for my head, but ,with time I had to forget about it .
Jss2 still, I had this music teacher who was interested in me , we call him 'OH MY GOD' he was most students crush, he was handsome, tall and speaks really good plus he was playful, he loves children. Although he was a Student Teacher we all liked him, whenever his invigilator comes to grade him, we would all cooperate . He would say OH MY GOD and we would respond MY OH MY. Amazing!
Like I said he was interested in me actually because I rap. He read some of my rap lyrics and was amazed not too amazed though, guided me. Today I tell you I don't do lyrics shit anymore, all I want to do is freestyle..... Actually in my head. I would say I was little then and I don't seem to know how I sit to write those lyrics. Right now it's so hard to sit and write one.
Yeah, so he read them and asked what my stage name was and I told him  Young Nicki Minaj and he laughed, he said 'now I see why everyone calls you Young Nicki '... cool.
Then he brought up the ideal to get myself a different and a unique nickname... I was happy, like really excited...tried a lot but none was unique ....another then another  ...but pheww ..none... Until he left.

SS3(Senior high) ,I was more on my own... I did more thinking, always feeling sad, putting on a fake smile ..but I was cool and still perfect. Although sometimes I did wish to die but em scared of death and obviously God didn't want me to die yet... I had serious anger living in me...sometimes I don't seem to get what I'm doing, my heart was heavy like it had a load on it or something. I didn't trust no one and no one trusted me... I had a feeling that after secondary high it was gonna be over with anything called friends... And yeah guess I was right... But not a 100% .
My SS3 I was more of this social media life style, lived my life online. I had a facebook account where I found much peace and pleasure in, but,  that's because I talked or cheated with people I don't know (Foreigners) ,people I would never see.... Hmm... Maybe I would see them someday.  But the thing was I lived a fake life online, everything about me was FAKE . I wasn't me, I was wanted to be on my head online. I was a poser, Jude Karda poser. Using the name Rose Angela. But, yes!, I was fine with that because I wouldn't have to worry or think too much. I had a best friend online and best friend which I couldn't get in the real world... I did call people my best friend but none of them really did take me as their best friend. Online, I didn't just have a best friend I also had a family where I call some group of girls 'sissy' and guys my brothers. We all had a group chat where we meet new people , made fun of each other and pairing ourselves into different relationships. I wasn't the only poser... Some guys where posers and some girls too. Everyone kinda lived a fake life online maybe just to be happy or clear their head from a lot... It was like another world entirely whenever I'm online. Although not everyone one was fake online but it was just a few who where themselves (real) online .
My Best Friend ain't a poser, though, he knows I was a poser because I told him.
His name is Christina Vasquez from California. He's very nice, caring and handsome. Particularly he's always ready to to listen which means he's a good listener. I call him 'Pal' .
Online, I was from Oslo, Norway. Funny. Anyways I told Christian about myself. We both get together really good. I told him how I rap at school and how I get praised by students. He suddenly asked what my nickname was and I told him Young Nicki and he laughed... He said "hell no...I'll get you a nickname Pal . Don't you worry " I was glad he wants to get me a nickname finally. The next day... I asked him and he said "hmm... I was thinking of Gigi it means pretty and you're a pretty cute light skin girl from Africa. You're amazing and I'm sure you got an amazing body of a model you did want to be... So the name Gigi suits you " I was happy and immediately I changed my facebook name to Gigi.  Then soon I added Kadrex stolen from Karda. Because I liked Jude  Karda.
Jude Karda ( Sarah Marie Karda) is a model for Toronto, she's skinny and white. I got attracted to her when I searched for skinny white models on Google and I saw her pictures.. She looked like a pretty white doll, are pictures where just so creative.
I'm not Jude neither am I Karda but I was once Jude Karda.
I told Christian I decided to add Karda to my name but in a different way, which would make it unique (just like my music teacher said "a different unique nickname ") as in Gigikadrex .
So yeah now my nickname is  Gigikadrex.

***Come to think of it everyone said it was unique and not common. I did try to find maybe a new nickname but some friends told me not to change it and that it was perfect. ***

By the end of SS3 I was mostly called Gigikadrex by friends... I did try to make them get use to it.  Although they pronounced it wrongly it didn't matter as long as they stop calling me Young Nicki. My brothers did make fun of the name though still didn't matter to me.

That was how I got my name....

GIGIKADREX.❤