Breaking you

Secret admirer

Sydney's p.o.v
12:28pm

Sydney: I can't believe we have been texting for hours.

Cody: I know, I could text you forever;)

Sydney: Thanks :) so what school do you go to?

Cody: South bridge, what about you?

Sydney:Really! Our rift across town, I go to North bridge.

Cody: We should hang out some time

Sydney: Yes! That would be amazing, how about on...

"What are you still doing up?" my dad questioned stumbling into my room drunkenly.
"Well are you gonna answer your daddy?" he asked walking over to me and grabbing my chin making sure I looked him in the eyes. "Answer me!" He yelled slapping me across my face, I held my tears in for as long as I could but once my dad left the room the first one slipped. And I knew there was plenty to come.

Cody: Sydney? You there.

Sydney has logged off.

I woke up Laying in the most awkward position in the floor."Uhhh what time is it?" I groaned as I fight to pull myself up as I'm still half asleep. "CRAP I'm gonna be late." I yell looking at the clock in the wall. I ran to my closet and grabbed my roots sweat pants and a tight purple t-shirt.

I quickly walk to the washroom trying not to trip considering I'm still half asleep. I brushed my teeth, my hair then I got dressed. I quietly walked down stairs grabbing my bag seeing my dad past out and wasted on the couch.
I tiptoed passed him then walked to school.

"Ughhhh I'm late" I said barging throw the school doors. I tryed to cover my face with my hoodie so people whould why stare at me knowing that I'm late but I failed. "Sydney Turner, your late." The teacher said as she stops teaching the lesson and stares at me with her dead, dead eyes. "I know I'm so sorry" I apologized pulling my hoodie off of my head and sitting down. "Oh my,what happens to your face?" she asked surprised walking over to me as the whole class laughed. I touched my cheek and remembered my dad slapping me. "Oh ya that's why I was late, I tripped and fell" I said staring down at my desk trying not to notice the whole class staring at me. "Very well then" the teacher said as she continued on with her lesson.
*RINGGG* (bell raining for lunch)

"I think you might of confused your makeup with dog shit." A girl said while shoving me. I just ignored her and continued to walk to my favourite cafe, where I go at lunch or just to be alone.

But they followed me. "So I see you joined Meet and Greet" the girls said as they sat at the booth I was siting at forcing me against the wall. "Meet any new men to abuse you?" One of the girls asked, trying to touch my cheek where the bruise was. "Stop" I exclaimed slapping her hand away from my face. "She's a vicious one isn't she?" The girls laughed. All lunch they made fun of me, I tried not paying attention to them by thinking about something else but nothing worked.

"Don't wanna be late again" a girl said as we all got out of the booth. I walked quickly out of the cafe trying to get away from the girls, I decided it whould be must faster if I walked threw the alleys. I looked behind me and there they where running after me. "Stop!" I heard them yell from behind me. I slowly turned around to see them all surrounding me. "Why should I?" I asked being the brave person that I wasn't.

"Because we're in charge" a red head said pushing me to the ground. I felt the warm sand burning my back and the rocks sticking into my skin. "You know you should smarten up" another girl said kicking me. I grabbed my legs and curled up into a ball crying in pain as they all took a turn kicking me. About 5 minutes later they finally left, and I was there laying in the now freezing cold sand, it was dark by the time I felt well enough to move. I limped my way home and stumbled threw the door. "6:30pm and it's already dark?" I questioned the time staring at the clock, thank god my dad was gone as I got some privacy.

I ran the water for the bath, got undressed then hoped in. "It coud be so easy to end this right now" I sighed. "One last breath and it could all be gone" I said taking a big gulp of air then holding myself under the water in the tub. All my thoughts swam threw my mind. what if it's okay. what if it's not. what will happen if I don't come back up out if water. what if...I gasped as I popped out of the water, "I don't have to do this today" I told myself. I dryed off then got dress and went over to my laptop.

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This is a sad book, I don't think it's right for people to commute suicide,trust me or don't trust me, it will get better, it just takes time to heal.
The longer you wait the better it will be, no matter what it is. give it a few mouths, your life will be back on track.
Stay safe, stay strong.
-veda💜