Jade Stellar: Supergirl In Love (One Direction Fan Fic)

Chapter 3

"That should be me, holding your hand. That should be me making you laugh..." What? Is Justin Bieber trying to annoy me now?

"Standing by and waiting at your back door, all this time how could you not know? Baby, you belong with me... You belong with me." Blah, blah, blah, blah, I can't hear you Taylor!

Okay. Maybe, I'm just exaggerating but I know my heart is totally having the time of its life singing these kind of songs as my eyes caught Louis and Eleanor cuddling on the other couch, looking like they don't care about the people around them. How come pretty girls like Eleanor get the guys they like to date them while girls like me don't? I mean, what's wrong with me anyway? I know I'm not drop dead gorgeous but I know either that I'm not ugly but that can do, right? I'm so envious I'm just looking at them, well more like staring stupidly at them, with eyes so sad. I know even if I can't see my eyes, because I can feel it. I'm not a hypocrite to deny it. Good thing I really don't have laser beams or else who knows what will happen to Eleanor if I did have that kind of super ability. Can't help wishing I had one, though. Oh please forgive me God for being a sadist and a masochist! I'm actually planning how to torture sweet Eleanor? No sarcasm intended.

Bad super girl, Baaaaad!

I mean, she's nice and all. Does she deserve that just because I fancy her boyfriend who is totally not into me? I think I should confess this to Dr. Phil.

Involutarilly, I cuddle to Harry who's still next to me, watching TV and his arm over my shoulder. He looked at me. "If you want to be mushy and chummy like that," He pointed at Louis and Eleanor. "All you have to do is ask." Harry teased, his dimples showing while he grin and I just gave him a puzzled expression. I realized he must have caught me staring at Louis and Eleanor's sweetness to each other. Well, one thing I know is that, if I explain I'll sound defensive and if I just shut my big fat mouth, I'll look guilty. I'll have to choose the lesser evil then.

"No I don't," I said simply, plastering a goofy look. I'm surprised that my eyes are at its best behavior when they should be spewing salty water right now. I guess my tear glands are dysfunctional. "I'm just exhausted and why will I want to be mushy and all? Look at them, there's so many ants crawling all over!" Referring to how sweet they are to each other. I acted grossed out and laughed at my own joke but then again, my heart felt like it's stabbing itself with a knife. I can imagine the poor little thing now going, "Why. Don't. You. Just. DIE?! You're a goner!" My laughter became a low hehehe on the end because no one laughed with me.

Oh carrots smarrots, I suck at lying today. Not only I'm a bad liar, I'm a lame joker today too. Frankly, I'm a professional liar and joker but not today. What is happening to me?! Or should I say, "Vas happening to me?!" See that?! I really suck now at joking! I can feel my embarrassment crawling inside my body, making me mentally face-palm myself. Does my alter ego, Jade Stellar, face-palm? I don't think so because she's cool and she wouldn't do stupid and humiliating things in the first place. But, I couldn't show this to everybody here especially Louis who is now looking at me with a smile on his handsome face. I looked somewhere else to break our eye contact since just looking at his mesmerizing eyes makes my knees shake and soggy like jelly. Making my butterflies in my stomach to go crazy and my heart to speed up as if it's in a race. I never thought that by just one glance and smile from him can make me feel weak and like I'm in some sort of heaven where only Louis and I know. Well in this case, I'm the only one who knows about that heaven.

I checked how Eleanor reacted to my lame attempt of joking. I looked at her and she's looking at me expressionless then rolled her eyes. What? Did I just see that? No bloody way will Eleanor do that! She's one of the sweet and kind people I know. She's so angelic, it's so sickening. Well, not in a bad way of course. Let me give you a list..