Today. I'm not sad. I'm pretty neutral to be completely honest. I'm both sad and happy. I got the motivation to finally get a gym membership. And I will dedicate myself to fixing who I am as a person. Tonight I'm happy. Not only because I love my job. But for the fact that for once I'm making someone proud. I'm happy that I have someone amazing in my life standing by my side seeing how I'm changing. Today I cried for the first time in a month. I couldn't stop it. For once it caught me off guard. I'm trying my best. I'm trying my best to keep pushing through no matter how difficult things can be. I'm trying my best to be the real me. Now I'm not writing any of these to make people feel sorry for me. I simply want people to know that days may be hard and your mind may be taking over your emotions. It's okay to be sad. It's okay to cry when you're upset and not feeling okay. It's okay to take some time for yourself. But you have to push through. There's people out there who truly care about you and enjoy you being here with them. I may not be able to help every chance I get but if there is anyone reading this. Ever. Feel free to open up. I want this to be a free space for people to talk and get advice from others going through something similar. I want to help. No matter how difficult that may be.
