Electrified love (kamishin/shinkami)

Explanations and broken promises

⚠️⚠️TW: self harm scars, thoughts of self harm, depression⚠️⚠️
An: so this chapter is going to be taking a slightly dark turn. Please read the trigger warnings and if you get triggered by these things, proceed with caution. Remember that you all are loved and if you experience these things, there are so many people that can help you.
Stay safe lovelies ~ Author-chan

Denki's POV

"Where do I even begin?" I laugh nervously and Shinsou just looks at me. "From the beginning" he says blankly. I can see the swirl of emotions in his eyes and I have to congratulate his amazing poker face. "Well-" I take in a deep breath and continue. "Basically I'm bisexual and I was teased and bullied by everyone, including my parents. I started getting depressed and started self harming, mainly by cutting just so I could let it all out. I don't do it anymore I swear! I saw someone and they helped me! I don't want anyone to know but I think I'm starting to like you. I'm sorry! I'm sorry!" I ramble and cry. Shinsou just sits there. Saying nothing. Great! Now you've made him hate you! You're such an idiot Denki! He would never love you! I start hugging my knees, crying into them. I suddenly feel a strong pair of arms wrap around me, bringing me closer to them. "I'm sorry Shinsou.... you probably hate me now" I whimper, still crying. "How could I hate you?" He says. I choke on my tears and sit up straight. "I'm concerned Pikachu" he whispers. I laugh slightly at the nickname. "Why are you concerned about me?" I ask, wiping the tears from my eyes. "Show me" was all he said and I knew exactly what he was talking about. My scars.

Shinsou's POV

"Where do I even begin?" Kaminari laughs nervously and I just look at him. Concern floods my body. What could be so bad that he doesn't know where to begin. This is obviously is something bigger than what happened during the training session. "From the beginning" I say blankly.
"Well-" he says, taking in a deep breath and I prepare for what I'm about to hear. "Basically I'm bisexual and I was teased and bullied by everyone, including my parents. I started getting depressed and started self harming, mainly by cutting just so I could let it all out. I don't do it anymore I swear! I saw someone and they helped me! I don't want anyone to know but I think I'm starting to like you. I'm sorry! I'm sorry!" He rambles and cries. I just sit there, shocked. Kaminari......likes me? He was cutting? I need to know more! He starts hugging his knees, crying into them. I can't stand seeing him cry so I wrap my arms around him, pulling him closer to me. "I'm sorry Shinsou.....you probably hate me now" Kaminari whimpers, still crying. "How could I hate you?" I say and he chokes on his tears, sitting up straight. "I'm concerned Pikachu" I whisper and he laughs slightly at the nickname. God his laugh is so cute. "Why are you concerned about me?" He asks, wiping the tears off his face. I decide to talk through one thing at a time, so I say the most obvious thing. "Show me" I want to see if he was lying about the fact that he doesn't cut anymore.

Denki's POV

I sigh and take off my hero jacket. There are so many faint scar lines that I can't even count them. I decide not to show him the sides of my chest where I've been cutting recently. He looks so shocked, almost as if he wants to cry. "There is more, isn't there?" He says, running his hands over the scars. Paying particular attention to the ones near my wrists. I shake my head and he looks at me, clasping his hands tightly around my wrists. "Yes there is. Show them to me now Denki" I gasp at the use of my first name. That's the second time he has said my first name. I slowly pull my shirt up, showing the newly formed scars. Some were still red around the edges. He gasps and puts his hands gently over them. I wince as he touches the newer ones. "Kaminari why? You said you saw someone" is all he could say. "I did but they couldn't really help. I've needed more medication all year but I can't afford it, nor can my parents. Even if they refuse to believe I have depression" I spit that last part out. "Don't tell anyone! Please Shinsou! You need to swear that you won't! Promise me you won't!" I exclaim, fear washing over me. "I promise I won't but you need to promise you will try not to"
"I'll try"
"So.... your bisexual" he says and I nod.
"Well guess what?" I cock my head to one side and he smiles. "I'm gay" I say nothing but inside I'm jumping around for joy! He might like me! I don't know how.......but he might like me! "Ummm, I have to go get something from Aizawa sensei's classroom but I promise I'll be right back" he says nervously and I nod. "Remember our promise" I say as he walks out of the dorms. I guess he didn't hear the last part about me liking him. Oh well. I smile and lie down on the couch. Curling up in the spot where Shinsou sat. "It's so warm" I humm, shutting my eyes.

Shinsou's POV

Kaminari sighs and takes off his hero jacket. I have to stop myself from blushing. He puts his arms out in front of me and what I saw was shocking. So many faint scar lines cover his arms. I just want to burst into tears, I'm so upset. Why? Why? Why? Was the only thing going through my head as I saw the scars. I run my hands over the scars, laying particular attention to the ones near his wrists. "There is more isn't there?" I ask and shakes his head. I clasp my hands tightly around his wrists p. "Yes there is. Show them to me now Denki" he gasps when I use his first name again. He slowly pulls his shirt up, revealing even newer scars and cuts. I gasp, gently putting my hands over the scars. He winces as I touch the newer ones. "Kaminari why? You said you saw someone" was all I could say. I was in total shock for two reasons. 1 being the fact that Kaminari was cutting and 2 being that he was so ripped! Like, dammmm. Not now gay thoughts! "I did but they couldn't really help. I've needed more medication all heat but I can't afford it, nor can my parents. Even if they refuse to believe I have depression" he spits that last part out. I decide not to push it, that was another conversation for when he was ready. "Don't tell anyone! Please Shinsou! You need to swear that you won't! Promise me you won't!" he exclaims in fear.
"I promise I won't but you need to promise you will try not to"
"I'll try"
"So.... your bisexual" I say and he nods. "Well guess what?" He cocks his head to one side and I can't help but smile. It was the cutest thing ever! "I'm gay" he says nothing and fear creeps up on me. Great! Now he probably hates me! Wait no, he said he likes me.......I can't let him know I like him. Yet. "Ummm, I have to go get something from Aizawa sensei's classroom but I promise I'll be right back" I say nervously and Kaminari nods. I need to tell someone that he cuts. The only person I can think of is Dad. But you promised him you wouldn't tell! A voice inside my mind says. I know I have to tell someone, even if it means breaking that promise. I'm helping him. "Remember our promise" he says as I walk out of the dorms. I sprint to the Dad's classroom and find him sitting at his desk. Do it Shinsou. You have to. The voice says and I nod. "What is it kid?" Dad says, looking up at me. "Dad, I need to tell you something about Den- I mean Pika- I mean Kaminari" I stutter.