Infinity... (and Beyond)?

My Better Half

Every now and then
I come across a crush
Whom when I think about
Fills me with a rush

She may say "No"
Or may just have some pity
I'm unsure whether to go slow
God!! The Ambiguity!!

It may be worth the shot
I know I deserve it
But what if it was predestined plot;
A well planned skit..

"Every experience is a lesson"
I've heard this a lot
But what if I have no time to listen?
No more feeling that I've got..

After a point your heart gets cold
Doesn't want to give anyone a chance
Weathers and becomes weary and old
No more does it want that dance

So I decide to get my heart crumpled
Rather than get it torn
I risk losing "my better half"
And feel like my new self being born

I may be a bit more rude
I'm sure I'm off-putting
Every time I think that my decision was crude
I feel that heart-throbing sting.

People will keep judging me
Keep saying that I'm being unreasonable
It's obvious that they can't see
The real me that has been unreachable...