Losing hope [bang Chan]

Thinking

He walked away.

I turned around to start walking, but I stopped again to watch him walk away. Why is my heart beating so fast, I can't possibly like him. He is trying to ruin my life. I turned around and started walking again.
I tried to clear my mind by thinking of other stuff, but I can't I keep thinking of how bangchan bought my stuff. Why didn't he let me make a fool of myself? He said he'll ruin my life, but why did he buy my stuff if he hates me?

I got home with my drink and pills and watched my movie and continued eating.
It was 10:00 pm. I was so caught up in the movie I jumped when I heard the door open revealing my brother Changbin and some....girl? "Runa come meet Ryujin" I walked over to her "hello ryujin, my name is runa" I said. She smiled warmly at me, which I wasn't expecting. She looks like a bitch, she's very pretty actually. "Hi runa, I hope me and you can be close" she said with what seemed like a genuine smile. I returned the smile. "Either way I'm going to my room, nice to meet you ryujin" I said grabbing my phone and headed up stairs.
I headed to my room and sat down on the bed and started painting. Painting was actually how I used to calm myself after a bad at school.
I lost track of time so I checked my phone. My eyes widened when I saw it was 2:30 am. I got dressed in my night clothes and went downstairs to go get my pills. I walked down stairs and saw Changbin and ryujin watching a movie. "Sorry to interpret I just needed my pills" I said trying not to seem weird. "You're ok" ryujin said as I grabbed my stuff and headed back upstairs.
I took the pills and headed off to sleep shortly after.

——RUNAS DREAM——

He kissed me, I was surprised at first but I didn't wait long to return the kiss. I was so into the kiss I didn't realize he pulled me onto his lap. I started playing with his hair, as his hands were on my waist keeping me in place (omg that rhymed). He looked me on the eyes leaving me confused and instantly shocked at who it was. It was bangchan?!

——END OF DREAM——

I woke up panting remembering the events of my dream. Why the hell am I dreaming of bangchan?? And why were we kissing? I got of from my bed and went downstairs to get water. No one was in the living room or downstairs at all. I sat in the kitchen, just letting my thoughts take control over me. How was I supposed to face him when I just had a dream us making out? I took a drink of my water trying to calm down. I looked at my phone seeing it was 7 am so I just decided to stay up and go get ready for school.

I didn't feel like getting drive to school so i told Changbin I will walk to the bus stop.
I started walking putting my earbuds in and playing ateez wave. After 8 minutes of walking I finally got to the bus stop, surprising their were at least 7 other people waiting there. I continued listening to music, as more and more people started showing up I got more anxious cause any second bangchan could pop up.
You got distracted from your thoughts when the bus pulled up. You chose a seat and felt kind of relieved that bangchan show up. But that quickly changed when right before the doors closed bangchan walked right through them making your anxiety sky rocket higher than Mount Everest. I started looking around for a place he could sit but all were taken...except mine. I started mentally freaking out when he started walking towards me so he could sit down. He sat down and out his headphones in completely ignoring my existence. I decided to do the same, and it was alright until the bus started hitting bumps making you and bangchan get pushed together. You froze not knowing what to do you just hid your face. You looked at bangchan seeing him...blushing??? The fuck? You got distracted by your thoughts when the bus made a wide turn making bangchan grab your thigh to keep him from falling. You both froze, you were both blushing hardcore. He pushed you away "don't look at me like that" he said coldly "what do you expect me to do, you just touched my thigh" I responded back earning a glare from him.
The bus finally showed up at school, as soon as the bus stops bangchan was the first one to stand up.
Eventually everyone got off the bus and started heading to class.

I finally made my way to my 1st class and sat down next to bang Chan. Bangchan instantly rolled his eyes. "Can you stop being a ass?" I asked him, he just scoffed "can you stop eyeing me down?" He asked me. Well fuck. At that moment the teacher walked in and started the class.
"Okay class, today Your going to be assigned partners for a project due next week. Your going to be giving a presentation on your decided topic.
She was assigning partners, and I wasn't paying attention until I heard my name.
"Runa and bangchan" me and bangchan both shot our heads up at the teacher then at each other. What sin did I commit for this to happen to me,
Class went by fast, next thing you know, the bell rung. I got up getting ready to leave when someone grabbed my wrist turning me to face him. When he turned me I was so close to his face my face got really red. He backed up some and said "here's my number, call me after school and I'll go over to your house" he gave me a piece of paper I assumed had his number and he walked off leaving me a red mess.

I'm screwed