FATE |THIAM|

•Chapter 07•

-No! please stop!- I sit abruptly in the bed, crying and sweating, I thought my nightmares were gone... I look at my alarm clock 2:45am

-Theo!- A loud noise catches my attention- Please open the door!- Instantly I remember everything that happened last night, me arguing with Liam because he thought I hid Tracy and who knows what other things- I need to know you're fine! I heard you scream!

-I'm fine, now go!- I shout and walk to my bathroom preparing the shower, I don't care about the time I just really need a shower

My mind is a mess right now, and the fact that I did not only dreamt about Tara but also Tracy, Josh even Corey and Hayden really hit me, Liam's not wrong I killed them... all of them

But you regret it and changed for good...

But I killed them, and that will hunt me forever

-Baby please we need to talk- My heart skipped a little with the nickname but just for a second- I'm really sorry...

-I'm not in the mood for talking Dunbar- I know I'm being harsh on him but emotions are clouding my judgment

I take clean underwear and get in the shower

🐺

LIAM

You had to ruined it again Liam, congrats, I sigh and think of a way to talk to Theo, after a couple of minutes my brain came up with an stupid but effective idea... I think

I run to the backyard were the big window of Theo's room is, in the ground there are wood stairs which I can use to climb half way up, then I can jump and if I don't die I'll be able to take the edge of the window and get in his room, who would've thought that spending too much time with Stiles would actually help? Creating stupid plans but help

I place the wood stairs and start climbing, once there aren't more steps I prepare myself mentally and physically to make the dumbest thing in my life

-Okay Liam you can do this- I mutter- 1...2...3- I jump as high as I can but of course I'm Liam Dunbar, idiot is my middle name

My body impacts with the grass of the backyard

-Liam!- I hear someone shout but my vision is a little blurry from the fall

I try to breathe but my back was the first thing to collide with the grass suffocating me

-Oh my god Liam, what were you thinking!!- I know it's Theo, I'd recognize his voice anywhere- I need you to breathe with me, okay? Inhale- I try to do it but fail- Slower- I do as he says and it actually starts working- Great, now exhale

I do it and it takes only a few seconds before I can breathe again, I feel my body healing and my vision less blurry until it's completely clear letting me see Theo's face close to mine

-I can't believe how stupid you are- He says and I just smile and laugh a little- Stop laughing! This isn't funny!- He punches my arm making me groan- Sorry sorry, I'll take you inside- Carefully he places one of his arms under my back and the other one under my legs and starts walking inside the house

Once we get in, he goes upstairs and place me on his bed

-Can you explain me what were you trying to do?!- He says completely furious

-I just... You wouldn't open your door and I really wanted to make things up so... I thought maybe I could get in through the window- My cheeks warm up

-You could've died! You know what that means?! Dead, no more breathing, no more...living!- His forehead vein is pretty noticeable- Didn't you think about that?!- I nod- And you did it anyways!

-Yeah!- I sit once my body is half heal- I rather be dead than live with you ignoring me!

He looks at me and his eyes start filling up with tears

-I like you Liam, damn I love you, a lot! And I know I did awful things in the past that I can't change, but I'm trying to be a new person one who makes good decisions and I can't do it if you keep reminding me all the awful things I did, it's not the first time you do it, I know it's not really you but your anger who is talking, and I'm not blaming you, it never lied, I did all those things but I need someone to believe in me so I know I can be a different person, and until last night that person was you...my nightmares came back way worse, I'm starting to think there's just no more hope to change, I don't want to give up but I can't do it if you're not there to support me, I need you more than you think...- Once he finishes his cheeks are filled with tears and his breathing is irregular

-Theo... I...- I stand up and walk towards him now that my body has healed completely- I'm sorry... you seemed so happy that I didn't know you were struggling so bad, I'm so sorry- He stares at me for a couple of seconds before his arms are wrapped around my waist, I hug him by the neck while he places his face at the curve of mine still crying- I didn't mean to say those things, I promise from now on I'll start working on my anger- I say whispering next to his ear

He nods and gets back looking to my eyes

-I just don't want that every time you think of me all those awful things come to your mind, I want you to think about happy things we've done together and that stuff- He's cheeks are red but I'm not sure if it's because of what he just said or the crying

-Believe me- I take a step towards him- I already do- Both of us smile

-Can I ask you just one more thing about all of this?- I nod- Why? Why ask about Tracy when she'd already explained you what happened?

I scratch the back of my neck awkwardly

-I...I just got scared...- He frowns- For a moment I thought that maybe you would prefer to be with her instead of me...- He lets out a laugh confusing me

-Have you seen yourself?- He smiles approaching to me- You're way to cute to let you go, I've never met someone like you, kind, cute, funny, weird, smart, goofy and sexy at the same time- I'm pretty sure my cheeks are read- From now on no more secrets, we'll talk to each other no matter what, okay? That's the only way we can actually help each other

-Okay- I smile and after that we go to bed with a big smile on both of our faces