Obsessed (Jung Hoseok aka J-Hope/Park Chaeyoung aka Rosé) [Complete]

1. Heart's anesthesia

It had been exactly a year since their relationship ended. But Rema could remember Hoseok’s words that had torn her apart as if it were yesterday.

"It's over"

She had tears in her eyes the day he told her. He asked to meet her in a cafeshop. He knew she had a great pride, which will surely prevent her from bursting into tears in public. He didn't want to see her cry, because that would push him to take her in his arms, because even if seeing her sad didn't hurt as much as it should, he still had some affection for her. And he was right for the choice he had made for the place because she didn’t let the tears in her eyes flow.

"I’m sorry"

He didn't know what else to say. He could see her tears threatening to flow, he could see that she was speechless, even if somewhere a tiny part of her feared this moment.
It was true that their relationship was somewhat struggling. But she was convinced that everything will be alright. So she just didn't understand how and why his love for her died overnight.

Was the problem how she looked physically? Had she gained or lost too much weight? Or was it the new way she dressed? She had spent the first few months after their breakup wondering what hadn't worked out by asking herself these questions in the first place. During the weeks that followed their breakup, she couldn't admit it and accept their separation. She sometimes sent messages to Hoseok asking if there was anything she could do to get everything back to when they were happy together.

"...It's over Rema. I don't love you anymore, I tried to start loving you again, I tried to make it work as much as you did but you will have to get used to it. You should really move on. ”

These words were hard to assimilate for Rema, but after the umpteenth call from him which was only a conversation that revolved around the same subject Hoseok had lost patience with her. He had to make her understand once and for all that between them it was no longer possible.

Rema kept lying to herself and could not see how much before it ended between them the arguments were more and more recurrent and that they were fighting on banal subjects like the food they wanted to order and share or the choice a meeting place for a date that was never done because they could not agree on a day. Said that way, it would seem normal for any couple but for theirs it was just the beginning of the end because, they rarely had arguments.

Hoseok realized the extinction of his feelings for her when the little things he liked about her now made him indifferent. Her messy hair in a bun in the morning, the smell of her perfume stuck in his sheets that remained after she left her apartment early in the morning to go to her part-time job, her crystal cute laugh when she was watching a funny video on his phone late at night.

Because yes, he too refused for a long time to admit it. He refused to leave her, keeping in mind all the good times they had spent together. That’s why, one evening, two days before they broke up, he went to her house, drunk. He was coming back from an evening he spent with his friends where he confided in them about the possible future (or not) of his future ex-girlfriend. Under the advice of his friend Yoongi, he had to have his heart set on it. The sooner the better, he said. Why not tonight?

During this evening he had also incidentally confessed that their relationship was going so badly that he had gone so far as to fault.

— But I can't guys, I ... I love her so much, I don't know, he said in a thick voice.
— Hoseok let go, ordered his friend Yoongi, snatching his glass and the new bottle of soju he wanted to open.

Hoseok's revelations had the effect of a cold shower for his six friends. They were instantly “un-drunk”.

Impossible. Not Rema and Hoseok! They looked so happy, so fulfilled, so ... perfect. And being unfaithful was so not the Hoseok’s kind, his friends immediately changed their expressions when he dropped that huge reveal.