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I'm doing 80 in a 60 mile zone and all I could think of was Alisha. I connected my phone to my car and press her name to call her. Not even 3 rings in and she answered the phone with an attitude
"LOOK HERE! You don't just decline my calls and watch my shit ring !"
"Damn , ion get a hey Chrissy , how are you none of that? Okay "
I said sucking my teeth. We just have casual conversation and I'm thinking about telling her what happened but I don't. She asks ;
"How did you sleep?"
I responded "I didn't really get any"
And she says "why?"
I told her "Mind your damn business"
But that wouldn't trigger any signs cause that's just what we do. She laughs it off and tells me her girlfriend is calling so she'll call me back. I told her okay and I heard the click of the phone hanging up.
At this point I'm cruising home trying to clear my mind , but I can't and overthinking is the worst feeling in the world. My stomach begins to grumble so I decide I should put something into my body before I pass out so I pull into the McDonald's drive through to get a sausage egg and cheese McGriddle.
"Your total is seven dollars and 46 cents please pull up to the front window."
The voice sounds so familiar but I can't put my finger on it. There's three cars in front of me so I just wait my turn. I cut on my song come through and chill by Miguel and I'm jamming. I pull up to the window when the J cole verse comes on so I pause the music; that's my part so I'm not finna miss it getting this food. The lady who's serving me me is turned around getting my food saying the total over again while I put my head down to pull out a 10 dollar bill. I look up to hand her the money at the same time she turns around and my jaw drops.
"K- .... Kimberly ?"
"Oh my god ! Christina ?? I haven't seen you in forever"
She said in awe. To be completely honest my heart began to crack.
"We should go out and get coffee later ... if that's not weird"
I cocked my head to the side and kind of frowned.
"If it is weird I'm sorry , I just ... miss you... I'm sorry we fell out over a girl."
All I could feel was glass shards piercing my heart, then one by one it fell to the floor boards of my car. The thoughts of me fucking her girlfriend, my head looking upwards and seeing her face on the wall while I'm cumming on Nae's and tears start to swell up in my eyes. I can feel Kim looking at me so I look up at her trying to hold back tears and say
"I'd love to KK."
I call her that because that's what I used to when we were besties.
"Call me later." I said
"I don't have your number anymore."
"470 476......"
I proceeded to give her my number and she hands me my food with the goofiest smile on her face. I try to pay but she insists
"This one is on me!"
I pull out of the drive through with a lost appetite and fragments of my heart on the floor. I get back on the road to head home and try to press delete on the memories. Regardless of me trying to drown them out they start to surface and blind my vision and take my focus off the road. I slowly start veering onto the opposite side of the street where approaching cars are going full speed. All of a sudden I hear a loud HOOOOOONNNNKKKK! I come back to and realize there's a 16 wheeler barreling towards me. I swerve my car back in my lane smashing into the railing that kept my car from going over the highway.
My body whiplashed hitting my head against and the steering wheel busting my lip. My air bags deployed and hit me straight into the chest stripping the breath from my lungs .
Gasping for breath and the reflection I caught of my busted lip from my shattered rear view mirror was too much. Everything began to go black and I felt myself drifting off with the faint sounds of sirens in the background.