To My Father

Oh no...

        I am so happy, I can not wait till tommarow so I can ask him out.

"Hey mom I'm ba-"

"Hey sweetie How was your day?" she says rushing me to the kitchen.

"Good, where's dad?" I really like talking to my dad better than my mom since he won't talk to me for an hour and then leave for 2.

"Outside but can you help me with-" as she said that I race out the door and jumped on his back.

         "Hey Dad!" I missed you, my dad is a buisness agent so I never get to see him I really miss him most of the time but sometimes more than others. My dad knows me more than anyone else besides Vanessa and Phillip, I wish I could see him more but I don't think he likes leaving either. I have only been on a plane once while he has been there hundreds of time, I ask him to bring me with but he always says "Remember what your grandpa said Never go on planes they are just another death trap waiting to happen". "Yea I know, but I just really miss you sometimes dad" I say almost in tears "I do too, You know I love you more than anything right?" I know Dad".

        I went inside to do my homework and jumped into bed at like 8:00 pm just cause I wake up at 5:00am. I just couldn't go to sleep I thought about how my dad will leave in like 2 weeks for 2 months,also Jake kissing me and running off, how Phillip will take that, and how I will get Ashley away from Jake. I dreamed of how I looked and how Phillip would look if he saw that and how my dad would... kill him. My dad doesn't like me with any boy besides Phillip because he knows Phillip would never hurt me and other guys will.

        The next morning I was walking to my bus stop (yea the bus I have no car because I failed my driver's test) and Phillip walked with me but then Jake came by and said "Need a lift" I said sure but Phillip held me back. I said "What the fuck Phillip, I am fine now get in" as I said that he jumped in the back seat while I turned the radio up and sung the song Fancy, Jake laughed while Phillip was whispering things he will do to him if he takes me away. I heard a few like stab and kill but I never really know all of what he said (that's what scares me).

        We got to school and Jake asked if he could talk to me alone I said yes and he pulled to the back of the school. "So about that kiss... it was really... really good" he said with a smile, what do I do? I mean I am just smiling with joy but fear of what Phillip do to him. Phillip is not a normal guy he is sweet,weird, and cute but still to me he is more of a friend than a boyfriend. I finally responded after 5 minutes and said "What about Ashley...? I really hope he is not planning to cheat on Ashley for me. I mean I don't like Ashley very much but she is still a person and I just can't do that. "I am not dating Ashley she is just... protective and she just has a little crush on me, no big deal" ha said but that just made me more worried about Ashley and him.

        The bell rung and I said "I really need to go, talk to you at lunch?", "Yea, and I'll pick you up too, just like everyday right?" I nod and run to class. Not that it matters because I am already late, to tell the truth I would rather just skip and go home but no... ugh school. When I went to class everyone was staring at me and Jake then started whispering. "Do you have a pass?" my teacher asks with his death scare "No sir I was... uh talking to her about.... logic?" nice one Jake, "Detention for you both" he says as he points to our seats.

        After class I Phillip met me at my locker, I mean I was going to tell Phillip but he is really strict and a killer... well atleast that's what I see. Jake followed me and said "Did you tell him yet?!" I gave him a look like I will kill you if you say one more thing, I tried to act like he didn't say that and said "What's up Phillip?" I say trying to ignore what Jake said. "Good, but what did he want you to tell me?" at that point I really just wanted to hug and kiss Phillip just so he would forget everything I just heard Jake say. The only time I really ever kissed Phillip was at the park on top of the highest tree.