Death by a thousand cuts

Never been this easy

The rain started my morning waking me up to a loud clap of thunder and what sounded like stones hitting my windows. It's rain though. Just making that clear. I stretched my body till I heard a popping sound and satisfied I stood up walking to my bathroom with my phone. I started the water in the shower as I picked out my clothes. Remembering I heard a text the previous night before falling asleep I checked my phone. Jimin.

Jimin: hey I'm being told to apologize. I'm sorry I get I shouldn't talk about people behind their backs. Irene is encouraging me to reach out to you. So if you wanna be friends that would be cool we can grab food with the boys sometime.
For months I had wish he would text me. I wished he would admit he was wrong and want me back. He would say he wants to be friends in my realistic dreams and I was ok with that cause at least I still had him in my life. At least I kept his light in my life. But his text didn't spark joy like I thought it would. I felt nothing. No excitement. No butterflies taking over and making me imagine his hand in mine walking in the park like we used to. Without my heart even skipping a beat I respond with a simple ok sounds good. I noticed I had another message.

Taehyung: he's an idiot to leave you. I hope you know that :) text me when you wake up! We can get breakfast!
Me: Id like that thanks Taehyung:)
Taehyung: no!! Call me tae~ I'll come over in 20 to get you!!

Smiled to myself again. Why does he have this effect on me and I don't even know him. Maybe it's all apart of his charm. I'm sure he's like this with everyone. Before I got in the shower I decided to put his music on to hear it. He's got a few singles and one full length album. I added them then hit shuffle.
The first song began and gave me chills. He voice is so deep but sweet. His high notes surprised me every time. How can he have such a range? I listened to the lyrics and looked at the song to see what I was as I lathered my hair with shampoo. Stigma- single.
Wow if that's a single then I wonder what his album is like.

I finished with my shower and began to get dressed texting Taehyung. I looked up hair Instagram account again and followed him. I hope he doesn't mind. Pretty feed. Not what I expected from a celebrity. But it looks like him. I don't know I guess he just seems like a normal guy to me. I can't really imagine him with people chasing after him and stuff. His feed is just him and his friends. Nature shots. And art. He doesn't show anything off. No fancy car or designer stuff he's flaunting. If he is wearing designer clothes you can barely tell cause it's not the focus of the photos. Rather it's his family or his friends and him. He really is just a sweet boy who wants to share art with the world.

I got a text he was here and I left my place with my keys a bag I chose from my shelf. I admit I enjoy expensive things but everything I have I have worked for. Never given to me. He smiled the second he saw me making my want to hug him. So I did. He welcomed it with open arms and he led me down the hall to the elevator.
"Are you ok after last night?" I asked worried. He's wearing a white face mask to cover his face.
"Yes don't worry! I'm good! Are you ok?" He asked me lowering his face mask so that I can see his smile.
"Yeah I got the right amount of sleep thank you. I'm Uhh I'm sorry for what I did." I said quietly. We got into the elevator and he hit the lobby button. He looked at me scrunching his brows together.
"What are you sorry about? You didn't do anything." He said.
"I don't want you to think I kissed you for attention. I'm sorry I did that. I forgot you were even famous and just thought it would be ok to kiss you then I remembered people are always watching you and - I'm sorry." I said to him all in one breath. He laughed through his nose and smiled.
"You're special to me." He said hugging me. The elevator doors opened and we stepped out on the main lobby.
" You know I'm happy you didn't know who I was. It made me feel normal. Even if you knew who I was you treat me like a human." He said grabbing my hand swinging our arms as we walked down the street.
"Aren't you worried people will see us?" Said to him whispering. His eyes looking down at the ground as we walked he smiled. Looking up at me he winked.
"I'm not. Come on let's go! The place is just down here." He said as he began running with my hand in his.