Having ADHD & Autism

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by gracelily0315

by gracelily0315

Whenever I tell people I have ADHD or Autism they always say "oh I would have never known" and it's because for my ADHD I take medication and my autism is more what's in my head and it's not a physically disability.

My ADHD means I find it hard to focus and I have to try and find ways so I can concentrate properly. My thoughts seem random to others because they sound like they just come out of no where, but to me they aren't random and they are always triggered by a noise or something someone's said.

One of my teachers once said to me that everyone has a pop band in their head and when they get stressed, angry or excited etc the pop band turns to a rock band, where as my head is already a rock band so when I get excited, stressed or angry etc the rock band turns to a heavy metal band, and I think that's a good way to describe it.

I got diagnosed with ADHD when I was 7 years old and before I was diagnosed it was so hard, everyone would say I was a naughty child or my parents were bad parents and I really struggled at school because I couldn't concentrate and everyone thought I was a bad child and I basically missed out on the first few years of primary school, but when I got diagnosed everything changed and I got Medicated and I got more support and I was happier and I could focus and learn better.

Something I struggle with is the timing of my tablets. I take my tablets at 5:30am in order to be able to get up but this means they run out early so I struggle with homework because I can't focus.

One of the hardest things about having ADHD and autism is that they are complete opposites which sometimes makes it feel like there's like a boxing match in my head.

My autism comes with big emotions and sometimes I struggle to deal with them and I don't know what to do, so I panic. I often feel overwhelmed in certain situations and sometimes it makes me become fidgety.

Along with ADHD and autism comes anxiety. My anxiety often makes me sick, so the way I stop it is by distracting my self, a few things that are good distractions is YouTube and ft my friends because they are so understanding.

Having ADHD and autism means I find it hard to do assignments for college and if I can't do something because it's too hard I get really annoyed at myself. In primary school and secondary school I have always had a teacher that I can go to for anything and in college I'm still trying to find the right teacher I can go to.

If I go out with people for a day or I'm around people for a while then when I get home or where ever I am I have to find a quiet place where I can 'de-people' myself, which means I just take some time alone usually to go on my phone and watch YouTube or look through Instagram.

Throughout all the years of having ADHD and autism my friends and family have helped me so much, some of them understand me so much and it's so nice that I can be myself and they don't mind or judge me. It was only recently that I've found people that are my true friends as I've had friendship issues in the past because sometimes people don't understand that I don't understand certain situations.

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I know this was a long chapter but sorry I've not posted but I will be posting when I can. Sorry if this doesn't make sense, I rush things.🤭😂