Someone to catch me (Sequel to Free Falling)

Lost and Found

Its been months, and when I say months I mean LONG months. Yeah I have my little girl with me. But its just not enough at this point. I can't stop thinking about Jenna. Its been 6 months. Meaning our little girl is 6 months old. I can't believe she is so big. She crawls around, laughs and smiles. She is the only one that makes my day when i wake up. The only reason I'm still here. I just about cry myself to sleep almost every night. 

In the past 6 months the boys and I worked on our NEW album, called 'Take me Home' Is soon coming out. Meaning, there will be more tours coming up next year. I have no clue what we are going to do with Jenny, I don't want to leave her behind for months. I'd be missing out on alot of her life then. Jenna would not want that. Everything has just been screwed up since Jenna passed away. Ruth and my mother have been trying to help me out. I really appreciate it, but I'm going to have to learn how to deal with this on my own. 

"Liam?" I heard an Irish accent rush through the house. My best bud, Niall is here. He's been by my side since Jenna left. He's such a big help. 

"yeah?" I turned around to see the cute blond Irish boy holding Jenny. 

"She was crying in the other room" He looked at her, as she gave him a smile. She was so adorable. 

"I'll ta..." I Began

"No, I've got her."

"Thanks Niall" I patted him on the back, as i went back to looking for some lunch. 

"You need to rest" His hand was laying on my shoulder. 

"I'll cook, and watch Jenny. You go lay on the couch and relax" Niall helped me in every possible way. I really enjoy having him around, without him my life would be a complete mess. Well it still is, but not as bad. 

"Niall, you don't have to.."

"No you look tired" I frowned at his comment, knowing that it is only the truth. I took my sweat shirt off, laying it over the back of the chair. 

"Thanks" I kissed Jenny on the for head and hugged Niall. I decided to go up stairs. I was not planing on sleeping or resting. To be honest I have no clue what I was going upstairs to do. But i do know it's very quite up there. It's where Jenna and I would spend out Sunday mornings. It was so perfect at times. I miss that so much. I walked around to Jenna's side of the bed, sitting down. I starred around the room. It's so empty with out Jenna. My eyes stopped on the closet. A Purple book layed flat at the top of the shelf. I have not seen it before. It's probably just a book she was reading. I got up, walking over to the closet. I reached up to the top, grabbing it. 

The cover read 'To Liam & Jenifer' My eye's started to fill with water. I slowly opened it. Looking at the first page, it was Jenna's writing. Her hand writing was so perfect. 

Dear Liam, 

February 17th (36 days being pregnant) 

       I'm going to miss you. I'm very sorry for not being there to help with Jenifer. But this is how things where planed. Not everything can go our way. I've realised that, well I had to. I knew all along, how everything was going to end up like this. I dropped hints to Becca, I guess she never understood. I know you crying and mad right now for me not telling you. But i can't sit there telling you and have your response be 'Everything will be OK, nothings going to happen' when its not going to be. It would of just made everything turn the wrong way. I wanted to spend my last 8 months happy with you. 

Your probably thinking, 'Well how does she know its was going to be Jenifer'? I just did. I believed, I knew very well too. I'm glad its a girl, she will remind you alot about me. You'll get use to it, and enjoy it. You now have a part of me with you, I'm not completely gone. On the plus side I'm sitting right next to you everyday. You just can't see me, But i can see you.