Diary of A masc girl

Entry 1

Hey guys, Jonah here.

What's happened since the introduction:

My friendships with Alina and James have drifted away, and Cora and I's feels like it's inevitably going to happen soon.

I have this other friend, Selena. I told her once that I don't feel like I identify with my birth gender, and she kept asking so many questions that I didn't have answers to.

Eventually, she asked to stop talking about it and ignored that I had asked her to use they/them until I was sure of my gender.

I still hang out with her, but she's become hard to talk to. Remember how I said my head judges who's easy to talk to? Well, it's kinda like that, but it's changing.

I recently was shown how invisible I am. We were introducing ourselves at pride club and I got skipped.

I have been diagnosed with anxiety and started seeing a counselor. Well, I've only had one appointment and it was mostly question answering. Another question was if I wanted my mom in there with me. Is it weird that I do?

Now I'm thinking about how I have school tomorrow. Sunday's are the worst, because you carry the dread of Monday, and so Saturday is truly the only day you feel safe and stress free, because that's just how school is.

I asked Mom to do some research on homeschooling to see if it's an option, and she said she would.

I feel like she isn't though. Not knowing is worse than knowing, so I wish she'd tell me the truth.

I don't know how to close this, so..I'm going to sleep.