the darkest royals

•was it all a plan?•

While this tear falls down onto my decollete just like a raindrop Sebastian gets closer and hugs me.

It doesn't feel the same as the hug Theodor gave me.
Whenever Sebastian hugs me it's only because neither he nor I can cope with a certain situation.

But this one is surely diffrent than those in the past.

With a shaking and quiet voice I ask ''Do you know somewhere we can talk where we aren't surrounded by cameras or anyone who might spy on us?''

He nods and as our hug ends he gives me the tissue from the front pocket of his suit so that I can wipe away that tear.

We leave the room and go upstairs onto the first balcony we can find.

After Sebby spend at least ten minutes to make sure that there is no one around he starts to pull the microphone away and throws it far away.

As I rip mine away from my dress, I see just a little green-blackish dot and I go straight up to Sebastian and show it to him.

And I can tell you in all these years I have known him, he never took something quicker out of my hand and had never thrown something further away.

''A GPS thing right? Something to track where I am.'' I am quiet even though no one is around.

I just don't feel save here.

''Mine did not have something like that on it.'' He sounds like he is lost in his thoughts.

''When he really did get those camera teams here...''

''What he did.'' Sebastian interrupes while nervously playing with his gloves.

''He might have told them to put something like that on my microphone and that would be a sign that he doesn't tust me.'' I go on.

''Sure not to trust you is a clever move from him but also disrespectful.''While the seriousness in his voice gets stronger my thoughts take over my mind.

I must admit that I am a very strategic person so I like to plan things out.

But I like even more when my plans are actually working.

''And that guy I gotta marry'' I think out loud.

''The sad part is that this marriage is something so political important.

What is your plan?''

''I don't really know anymore Sebastian.

Wait, I know something I wish that Ciel visits me here.'' And at least that I can say strongly.

To have Ciel by my side is something calmingly, something I am use to, something I miss as soon as it's gone.

''Which Ciel if I may ask my lady,
the earl or the Ciel?''

I think it is funny how Sebastian doesn't say more than just the Ciel.

But what should I do here in Sweden with my english advisor and dearest earl?

No I need the Ciel who always was there and who I know would do anything for me.

And no I do not use him, everything he does for me, he does because I mean the world to him.

''My Ciel'' I say smilingly.

''He will get a heart attack when he hears that you'll marry that swedish little prince.'' Sebastian sound a little mad saying this and I can only assume that he really is.

I am not really happy with the part of staying here or getting married in the near future but a queen is gotta do what a queen is gotta do.

Anything for my nations.

Anything for my people.

This marriage could either be my greatest blessing or my greatest downfall.

While I am lost in my own world of fake senarios and worrying about the future Sebastian had called Ciel.

''He will fly now and be hear tomorrow at 10 am.'' He say it with a relieving glance in his eyes.

He knows as well as I do that to have Ciel around will calm me down and when I am calm Sebastian is also calm.

''Excuse me!'' A maid with very swedish accent says.

''Yes?'' Sebastian answer politey.

''The prince send me to lead his special guest to their rooms.'' Sebastian and I exchange a very interresting glance after she said special.

And that's not because of the fact that with her accent it sounds really funny but it sounds awkward to say that we are special guests.

I feel like we are prisoners keep under surveillance.

''Then let's go, I am tired anyways.'' If I am being honest I am not tired at all, I just want this day to be over and have Ciel here as soon as possible.

She lead us through a hallyway with portraits of some important members of the swedish royal family and all the names I can read below them I have never heard of before.

''Here is the room for the sir.'' She say while pointing at the door next to her.

''Well then good night my fair lady.'' He bend the knee and gives me a soft kiss onto the back of my hand.

While getting up he whispers ''Scream and I will kill everyone who dares to lay a hand on you.''

I simpely smile and say good night.

Then not like promised I have to go through another long hallway.

To seperate me from Sebastian is a huge move.

The last time someone did this, he tried to kill me.

If I screamed now, Sebastian would hear nothing.

It can't get worse can it?

''Here is the room for the highness'' She say while opening a door for me.

The room is with a red and golden decor and the main part is the very beautiful and comfortable looking bed.

So at least I will sleep cozy.

''God natt, I mean good night.'' I would tell her that I speak swedish very well but I think it is better that the servants don't know or even the king.

I nod so she can stop bending and leave the room.

As the door closes I throw myself into the dozens of pillows on the bed.

''My oh my, what a lady we have here.''