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Confind

I wake up untied. I guess my care taker came in while I was sleeping. Today is garden day. This is the day once a month I get to go outside the white building. Outside my room. I see other rooms in the building but never anyone else. I wish one day I would meet a girl like me. All alone, confined to her room and demons. Someone to understand my pain. Maybe she would pretty. As I'm thinking my care taker walks in. He dresses me in black dress, with white socks a little longer than my ankle. I also wear black boots with my heart necklace. I found the necklace when I was six. I don't know who it belongs to but it is mine for now. This is the one day of the month I don't wear all white. I feel better in the dress than my white one. I don't blend in to much in it. It also gives me a weird sense of comfort. After I dress my care taker walks down the hall with me. As we reach the end he puts my blind fold over my eyes. He say the world is cruel and I shouldn't see it. I hold his hand as we walk into another building. It's a garden where all the flowers look dead. I hope to be like one of them soon. They may be dead but they are still beautiful. I wish I could stay in this room. The walls are gray. It smells like death. I wonderful sent only smell in here. The white building smells of old paint. I don't enjoy it much anymore. I used to as a small girl