Torn Between Brothers

Daniel.

“Fifteen months,” I remembered Daniel opened this topic when we were sitting inside his favorite coffee shop.

“And still going strong.” I happily replied.

The sudden switch of Daniel’s reaction is still clear in my thoughts. I won’t forget how it looked like he was joking at first but all of a sudden he frowned when I replied. I don’t want to be assuming but I can sense that he’s jealous. Or maybe I’m just overthinking. Maybe I’m the problem. When I noticed that his smile did not come back, I frowned as well. I inched towards him and rested my head on his shoulder.

“What happened?” I asked, with my voice as soft and sweet as the morning wind.

“Dylan must be very lucky.” He said.

“And why is he lucky?” I asked.

Daniel stood up and hurried towards the exit. I got surprised because of all those hasty actions. I ran towards the counter and paid for our orders we haven’t finished yet. Then I followed him. He was waiting for me outside the café. I grabbed his right hand and turned his face to me.

“What’s wrong?” I asked.

“Seriously?!” He shouted. I did not expect that he would do that. I got shocked and my eyes were all fixed on him. Words almost escaped my mouth but there’s no voice coming out. My jaw dropped and I couldn’t understand what’s going on. “You are asking me what’s wrong when the answer is just right in front of you.” Daniel continued.

“I don’t understand.” My voice came back but that was all I could say.

Daniel peered deeply through my eyes. I can feel a burning sting and tears almost started pouring but they won’t come out. Gravity felt so strong. My head is being pulled down until I faced the ground. There was silence until I felt Daniel wrap his arms around me. That’s when my tears found a way to escape my eyes.

“I’m sorry.” He whispered.

I embraced him and then buried my face in his chest. His scent made me weak. “I don’t understand.” My voice cracked the same words I said.

He let go of me. “Sorry.” That was his last word before leaving me alone. I did not expect that he could just leave me there. When he left, I found myself crying as hard as I could. My knees felt very weak. Luckily I did not fall.

After that day, I sent him millions of text messages. I did not stop until he would text back. Daniel gave me a hard time. I almost lost hope but fortunately, he did reply. He apologized again. I don’t understand why he kept on doing that. Three hours passed and I didn’t even notice. Those three hours I spent just texting Daniel and trying to fix the gap between us. I realized that I did not send Dylan even one text message. That’s the time I figured that there really is something wrong. I love Daniel. And to make things worse, I feel like I’m beginning to love him more than I love his brother.

Since that day, everything between Daniel and I became better. He did not tell me what’s going on with him or what’s up with his sudden change of emotions but he told me to forget what happened at the café. Everything went back to normal. We even hanged out more. We’re starting to watch movies together and eat a lot lot lot.